As The Spirit Carries On...

I have been searching and connecting my own understanding of Indigos, kundalini energy flow, and humanity role in making the world a better place...

This journey of revealing new understanding about LIFE, make me feel like constructing a big jigsaw puzzle. We finished one puzzle, only to find the jigsaw that we've been finishing is a part of another bigger jigsaw puzzle to finish...

I believe instead of bring me regret, desperation or disappointment of the uncertainty in finding what we seek, I actually see this journey as the most fascinating part of life. We face one Eureka after another, only to learn we eventually need to search for many more Eurekas...

I think that's more about how we are equipped to do our roles on Earth.  As a writer who must write for both worlds, more because I got as many readers from the west, as I have in the east. I should have trained myself to use my helicopter view and see as many perspectives I could find without becoming judgmental...

Back then I hesitated that Islamic Worldview can be my solid ground to construct whatever I wrote. Recently a serial valuable discussion with a super special friend has brought me to firm understanding of how every important value in my LIFE should be wrapped up...

It's okay to be a seeker, as long as we finally grow to be The Finder. And it's nice to be a finder, only then we  will eventually grow to be The Keeper of our own Truest Truth in LIFE...

The Truest Truth we hold, is actually The source of LIGHT that could let innermost part of us SHINE, for the LIFE inside and the world outside...

So then, The Spirit Carries On...

Pick The Colors of Rainbow in LIFE...

After the sun goes down, the moon would come out with the twinkling stars, gives our twilight horizon a brand new hope, of better tomorrow...

Just the way all colors of rainbow shall arise, we could only pick them up between every raindrops and silver lining brightness of the sun. As we survived each thunders in all the storms we face in life...

That is how we manage to master the ability of flying above the storm, by cherishing every chance to dance in the rain...

The mastery of this simple skill will eventually grant us the insight, of how LIFE actually very WORTH living...

#FlyingAboveTheStorm
#ThePowerofConscience

Fallen Out of Love...

When LIFE took us to a certain point
Where CHOICE has to be made
Letting GO is the best OPTION...

Not that LOVE has GONE...

Sometime,
We only NEED to stay 
Where we TRULY wanted...

The Quest to Find Our Truest Truth...

"And What do you mean by truest truth...???"

Again, you asked... For this, I don't need any pause to think aboutthe answer, since I have spent years to answer my own questions about the truest truth in my LIFE...

I found that the truest truth is some kind of LIFE Codes we are commited to, in our line of duty, wherever we live on Earth as we serve the LIFE...

The Holy Book like Quran, should consist of the truest truth.  Yet for me, The Holy Book is still so full of secrets. Many people try to decode the verses written there by extracting the secrets based on their own specific understanding and knowledge...

Even if we have faith that Holy Book is contained of The Absolute Truth from The Mighty Creator, that we believe as The Infinite Source of Truth, when the truth is decoded and extracted by human, there will always be different perspectives in understanding the truth...

For example, like the truth of  heaven written in Quran. The explanation there might be comprehensive enough for people like you, because it is suitable for your own specific needs to understand LIFE...

So that could be the truest truth for you, while I would like to believe, I still need to complete my quest for the truest truth about Heaven.  Since my soul and spirit couldn't cope and accept the truth that you believe.  Not that the truth you hold is not true.  It is simply not compatible with the understanding that my mind, heart, soul and spirit hold. Somehow my intuition told me, there should be better explanation of Heaven than that. All we need is more knowledge and better ground to be more conscious of this truth...

I think the blog I wrote in 2014 could tell you more about the quest to find my own specific and truest truth...

Finding Our Own Stream ...

“I have been and still am a seeker, but I have ceased to question stars and books; I have begun to listen to the teaching my blood whispers to me.” 

~ Hermann Hesse

It is really good to understand that life is always about finding our own stream. Following the way we need to flow is always the best way to live rather than going with others...

Yet... Every river will end at the sea shore and become one in the same ocean. Although we might not go through the same river, but our beginning and our end most likely have the oneness within. As clear as the silver lining light in the sky that show us, we are living under the same sun and moon...

As for me learning is always my way of living. I learn about science as I learn about human. I learn to tone my muscle at gym as I learn to stretch my flesh and blood in yoga class. I simply love to learn, as I know my curiosity has always been the best way to energize the life in me...

But I guess, learning about many different matters in life never bring me closer to the truest truth about my life. Not until I learn about the life inside me, I found the true knowledge to live this life the way my own true nature should be...

Thanks for all of the challenges many of you have thrown at me, that always bring me closer to the core of my being, so I can find my way to flow my own stream...

Happily, Gracefully, Beautifully...
With the LOVE that always lighten up my way...

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

One thing I am sure of the quest to find our own specific truest truth, as our souls growth and we reach higher ground of consciousness, the truest truth we hold will also shift and expand to meet our newest level of understanding.

Great thing I learn about the universe, LIFE is always on the move. It is up to us, to synchronize the rhythm we play with the velocity of LIFE where we live. We can always choose whether to slow down or to accelerate, and meet the Universal Speed...

Anything will be fine as long as we always turn The LIGHT on and maintain our Existence Track in orbiting The Infinite Source of Truth in LIFE...

For the sake of LOVE, LIGHT, PEACE and HARMONY in The Universe. Hopefully...

True Meaning of HOME...

"So, What is the meaning of HOME...???"

You asked... After I shared some posts from Facebook and Kompasiana, that have something to do with my journey to the place I call HOME. So I took a silent paused, then I carefully tried to answer...

It is like an ocean for The Great Sailor I mentioned in my previous blog post.  They might have family and home on the land.  But no matter how hard they try to rest for retirement.  They will always hear the ocean call them to sail some more for the rest of their life...

I might be a mom and a wife, but I am born to be A Traveler. I have a duty to take a LIFE long journey, leaping through the space and time, gathering and sharing all the beauty of LIFE that I found along the way. I am traveling LIFE of the one inside of me and also of those who happened to share their LIFE with me...

Home for your soul, may not be the same for mine. Our arguments on several issues we discussed, has proven that we could have some different perspectives about LIFE. But I guess, our differences is the special part that amazed me most of our connection, we can be so different yet in so many part we hit the same understanding level about LIFE...

The blogs Mas Pong Sahidy wrote on Kompasiana few years ago, give me further  explanation about my own Journey Home. After all this while, finally I understand,  what he wrote about surrendering.  I just realized that, the best thing to do for me is only surrender and accept my LIFE the way I discover...

The Family LIFE is only a half part of our assignment on this planet, that's why I can be so restless home.  The other half still belong to the LIFE within me, as it is directly connected to The Highest Order. That's how we reveal our Existence Track, and The specific Order locked within our default setting...

This is also explaining why The LOVE I share with you give me comfort, and bring me the energy to reach better ground of understanding.  It is because at the time being on this planet, You are part of my Journey HOME. The souls are riding the energy tide, performing the sacred twin flame dance. So the spirits can carry on their duty to shine...

This is My HOME... Here on Earth, transcending all the way to the infinity and beyond, as we are definitely approaching the next life, towards our Final Destination...

The Infinite Source of LIFE...

The Kisses...

If the LIFE shall allow me to send you kisses right now,
I will plant those kisses on three places :

Forehead for the luck,
So you know how lucky I feel for the chance to share my energy, 

thoughts and feelings with you, so I reach higher level of consciousness...

Cheeks for the fortune,
So you know how I treasure the soul connection we generate, 

as one of the most valuable gift the universe  allow me to embrace...

Lips for the love,
So you know how I cherish all the LOVE, 

that your presence ignite inside of me, 

only by showing up and share the LIFE with me...

May The Force be With Us...

Transcending LIFE Journey...

I read The Angel's tasks from some beliefs, that makes me wondering what actually Angels do for Human LIFE, as an entity mentioned in the holy book that we supposed to have faith on...

As I start to see Angels are not exist on Earth to make human fear of God's punishments, nor force us to live other people's life by taking notes of all our good deeds and evil wrong doing as human...

Now I refuse to fear the life after death, as I begin to live at the most by loving this LIFE instead. So I would do anything within my power to make LIFE a better place, for the one inside me and also for those who share their LIFE with me. That way, I will die peacefully knowing I have no regret, because I have given everything I got to be ALIVE, and dedicated all of me to make this LIFE worth living...

I would rather believe that Angels are there for Humanity to help us living the LIFE to the most. They are whispering the words of wisdom every time we need it, and nudging us to the place where we should find light each time we face the darkness dragging our soul to the lower ground...

Not that I refuse to believe in afterlife, I see death as a gate to enter the next life realm.  The life after death is our next journey, where we might get a new post, new assignment, based on how well we deal with our previous roles in the spirit we carry...

If we carry out the role very well, we could be move to better task, if not we probably get a demotion. I believe for those who has been working in transcending LIFE, a demotion could mean a hell of rework...

This reminds me of the verses in the Holy Book which spoken of TIME, which suggests us to make the best use of our time on earth. And I believe, considering those verses, actually not being able to transcend The LIFE to better ground while we are still pretty much ALIVE on earth, should have been tasted like a downfall. This could give the spirit obstacles to carry on the duty to shine...

That's why we need to create interconnections with all the spirits that share LIFE with us to carry this duty and shine together for sharing our truest truth, enhanced with the patience, to face all the obstacles faithfully...

In the deepest part of my existence, I have a faith that The Angels, as well as all the citizens of heaven, are there to guide and look after our spirits. So we can manage to embrace our spesific duty on earth. As we know, all the spirits have their own assignment to complete, and The Angels should be there to help. So at the end of our life we could be coming HOME peacefully to The Source, The Mighty Creator...

I just recently realized, HOME is always about our level of existence, that starts here on earth as the ground zero, to be transcending all the way back to The Source as The Final Destination.  Even after we leave the life in this planet. As I always use the term, to the infinity and beyond...

I am happy to finally see, being HOME is about Knowing that I am travelling  the right path for the LIFE inside of me, hopefully it is also right for the LIFE of those who share forever with me...

May The Angels look after and guard my soul and spirit, to transcend all the way to the infinity and beyond, towards The Final Destination, The Infinite Source of LIFE...

The Place I Call Home

People might see me as a weird package,  who's full of anomalies...  

Yet one of my valuable friends once  told me, the measurement of my normality should be counted based on the series of my abnormalities. If the LIFE inside me still feels like a collection of paradoxes, even for my own self, then I should really consider, everything is NORMAL.  It's really good to believe that.  Then I start accepting all my anomalies in seeing LIFE, as if I am born to create new pattern to live instead of fitting in ...

Embracing my anomalies felt like finding heaven is a place on earth, when few months back, I read my eldest girl wrote about my biography, for her English assignment. 

"She has a different style in almost everything. The world in her eyes is a whole different thing from what you see. That’s one thing I like the most from my mom. She always sees things from a weird perspective. But somehow that’s mostly what helps people... "

It is really good to know that my own flesh and blood is accepting me as I am. This fact really give me abundance of energy to face the future, knowing that I have brought up an open mind young lady for the tiny universe where we share this LIFE.  Moreover, this LIFE continued to give me even better  things to live with, when the universe allow me to start a brand new journey with you.

Last week,  I encountered a chat with the very person who helped me found my heart back in 2013. This chat made me went to sleep in tears, as if I have just dragged the darkness back. We chat about a Place to Call Home.  I guess mostly because the chat make me lost a grip of my balance.  As the morning comes up, and the first ray of my sunshine kicked in, I start to see a better ground.  

Even if the darkness was there, it is always our choice to maintain the stand, whether we will choose to stand in the dark side, or we will step on a higher ground where the light is shining. People might come and go to show us the twilight zone. Yet it is us who must learn how to keep the light on.  So we don't have to accept that anyone who come and asist us, as the only source of light we have. 

Especially for the restless soul, who's been broken and torn apart like mine. I thought I have been turning on the light inside me. But I was wrong, the journey still continued on. As I realized it takes abundance of brightness to bring out everything inside the place where my soul is scattered.

As I ever wrote in my blog few months back, after I went on a soul journey to Solo, Magelang and Ngawi. On one event, I met a long lost soul who showed me that I wasn't home yet. My soul is so restless, I still need a place to call home. This is also felt Like playing back all my own Déjà vu episodes, as I am collecting every pieces of my broken soul.

I wouldn't dare to imagine where this newest episode of my life journey will take us.  But where ever it might lead, I have fate, it will be worth the effort. For this journey really give me a brand new insight.  Eversince 

I start this journey with you,  I sense a high tide of energy is igniting inside of me.  The energy give me a glimpse of a silver lining brightness that is spotting on the road I am travelling.  The light that might 

finally show my restless soul a way to the very Place I Call Home.  

T

his should be my time to wrap everything up.  If all the truths I have gathered along my journey to get my scattered soul integrated are the truest truth, then I should be able to find it written somewhere in the road map you hold.

God provides me teachers from all over the planet, to challenge my truths and show me how to be a complete human. He sent people to allow me located my heart. He let others show me how to find my God Spot. He even sent many broken souls as mirror to show me how my mind, heart and soul actually wired. 

Now He sent you... 

I will never be able to thank you enough for walking this journey with me.  All I know, when we did something to help the life, the universe will smile at us and return the favor in the most surprising way. Looks like it is my turn to get the surprise, I ho

pe you equally get something good from what we reveal together.

As I begin to understand, no matter how close we are to an enlightenment, that allow us to use The Light Saber to slice into the depth of other people soul. We could never be able to slice into our own depth alone. Just the way we will never be able to see our own ears. 

We certainly need a mirror to get all the brightness around us reflected into the darkness we unconsciously keep inside. At the secret corner of the soul where we locked our deepest fear in a Pandora box, which is placed so secluded and hidden, even from my own consciousness...

May The Force be Upon Us...

So this journey will finally show my way to The Place I Call HOME...

Hopefully...

#StarlightSeed

#TheJourneyContinueOn

The Traveler's Words...

This connection is really make sense... You understand the road map, based on the truth written by your experience ... I traveled the road, based on the guide written in the stars... If those two can walk together, what kind of understanding that can be revealed...

Mankind is in desperate need of explanation... the very one that can penetrate their mind, reach their heart and enlightening their soul... so they know where their God Spot is... then the spirit can carry on their duty to shine...

Even myself... I'm still struggling in my own twilight zone to keep myself steady to hang on the brightened ground... That's my line of duty... my battle ground to help people transcending their own soul... Darkness is the place where I carry on my duty to shine... While my highest dream is to spread all the beauty I collect in my life including the beauty of all the teachings that I finally understand... So the life after me could learn that there still hopes in humanity, to heal the world...

I surf the tide of energy that's been flowing to you so far and raise my own vibe... I guess, from our discussion about LIFE, I can highlight two parts that we could share... The self mastery and the existence track in the tiny world where we're living, how that makes us a complete human, so we can find our truest role in the universe...

We know, some people simply choose only to share their life in bright area, they often shut down the man inside from his fundamental needs as human, so they will never get in touch with their own darkness... They make their spirit content with the devotion towards God and Heaven... Yet they might simply missed the best thing the LIFE could ever give, like LOVE and Intimacy in multidimensional level, mostly because they turn off their own body-mind-soul-heart needs, rather than analyze them and looking for legal way to fulfill  the needs...
 
The body-mind-soul-heart connection must be solid to reach the goal carried by our spirit. The next would be how we connect to the closest LIFE around us... The way we deal with the darkness inside will help us understand the darkness inside people around us.

I found that we are all equipped with our own devils to deal with... each and every one of us are born with a dark space where the devils could enter in any ways... That will be our weakness... most people work so hard to cover their weakness with their strength... so they don't even see their weakness... What most people don't understand, that weakness is actually our growth spot, once we are able to convert the weakness into a significant growth spot...

As human, our body-mind-soul-heart connection has needs to fulfill... We can't expect the human in us to work in full capacity, without fulfilling this human needs... I learn that hunger is not only in the body, as food is not always the one we put into our mouth... Mind-soul-heart connection need their specific nutrition to preserve their function... As spirit needs us to do every spiritual journey to reach the God Spot, to work as it should be... 
How would we fulfill our heart needs, if we don't understand LOVE... And how would we fulfill your soul needs, if we reject the need to find our passion in LIFE...

We are all equipped with the real guidance of The Truest Truth... Yet the first thing we need is to recollect the truth inside us... Body mind, soul, and heart, they have their own truth in fulfilling their needs... So we can trust them to carry on their duty to make the human in us work in the optimum capacity... We need to learn how to be true to our own selves... The Honesty is essential part in the quest to seek for our own Truest Truth...

What I learn from my own journey is to find LOVE every where I go, towards everything I see, using the eyes in my head and in my heart. So I can manage to really get A LIFE and to be ALIVE. In the name of LIGHT, PEACE and HARMONY... That's my order, my role in the tiny universe where I'm living.

I use The Power of Words to work in spreading LOVE, LIGHT, PEACE and HARMONY. The soul whispering the words, that my fingers have to write through my heart... So locating the heart is an essential part of our journey, as soul-heart-spirit connection will give us autopilot journey... The only problem is to silent the mind... who tend to see everything in true or false... using the data the mind ever collects and analyzes...

May the truest truth inside, give us the way to find the guidance from every source of starlight, in every step we make. As we hope for the air of LOVE fill every cells in our body in every breath we take...

Heaven Helps....

Loyalty Towards The LIGHT...

The darkness only comes to those  who allow their Light Saber inside on. Loyalty towards this LIGHT will be tested within the worst pressure in LIFE...

Like a diamond, which gets crushed, exposed to the heat and everything, to allow every single sides of it shine, reflecting any light that comes upon this most valuable gem...

It is never the calm blue sky and the bright sunny sea that could train a greenhorn to be a sailor. It takes the wide spectrum of storms and all the wilderness an ocean could provide to naturally shape The Great Sailor...

It takes everything we are equipped inside to make our LIFE really worth living. So at the end of this adventurous LIFE we can proceed happily to the next journey towards the Infinite LIGHT and Beyond...

As we know for sure that all of the quality within the human in us, had been unlocked and used for the betterment of this tiny universe where we share this LIFE...

‪#‎RoadLessTraveled‬‪ #StarlightSeed #‎ThePowerofConscience 

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Through The DEPTH of Our HEART

Actually, The deepest darkest secret c

ould only come up, w

here the light on...

The human in us could simply be ordinary, but all of us got the flashlight inside, which might work like a Jedi's light saber, slicing into the depth of every innermost being... So the naked soul could be exposed, 

as we make the bare mind work. Then we could learn to clear the heart, and free

the spirit to carry on...

Life isn't about waiting the storm and thunder to pass, Life is about dancing in the rain and find all the colour of rainbow hidden in the sky, just above our blue horizon...

Dear God, allow me to recognize the strength to carry on, by the presence of people with warm soul and tender heart who will catch me when I fall. So I could find my way back

home...

#CrashLanding

LOVE should Set Us Free...

LOVE should set us free,  not cages us in fear...

So we understand which part of our being need to grow, 

as LOVE comes touching the LIFE inside us.

LOVE shows us the black hole in the soul, 

as LOVE bring the light back, 

to the deepest darkest corner of our being.

How could we LOVE anything better than 

loving The Source of Life, our Almighty Creator. 

The one and only reason all of us created on earth. 

As in the deepest part of our soul we know for sure, 

in every LOVE we feel, manifest His message 

for the tiny universe where we share the life inside of Us.

If the LOVE we feel, 

brings us further from The Mighty Creator, 

how would we ever call it LOVE...

The failure could be generate in our personal understanding of what LOVE really is, 

mostly because at the soul level, we fail to embrace our own Self LOVE inside.

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#‎GetaLIFE
‪#‎BeALIVE
‪#‎WeNeedLOVEnLight
‪#‎4PeacenHarmony

The Thousands of Miles...

It was 3 o'clock in the morning, I got awaken. I look at my cell phone, and saw an email from a half way round the world.

A message that gave my heart a million drops of warm feelings...


 Lady in Silk wrote to Sartre :
I received an e-mail from Rainbow, you must remember her... her profile is still on the site but she hasn't been on for a very long time for many reasons. She asked me to pass on a quote to you. However, I am copying to you the full excerpt from the e-mail that pertains to you... This is from Rainbow : Only one friend that I wanted to know his where about, he has the nick, Sartre. I think he is from Europe, you can pass this quote to him... 
"Man is condemned to be free; because once thrown into the world, he is responsible for everything he does. It is up to you to give life a meaning..." ~Jean-Paul Sartre  I am sure she would love to hear from you too. She is teaching now and is enjoying it very much. As always, she is keen to keep in touch and in her own spiritual way, she brings light to all..."
From Sartre to Lady in Silk :   Dear Lady in Silk, Thank you very much for your message; I hope you are doing well.  Rainbow is one of the most interesting people I've ever met; 
she is a true philosopher and an intellectual. I hold her in the highest esteem, and have wondered about her for a while.  I would appreciate it if you could let her know that I'm still in Europe, doing well, and that I miss our conversations.  “The individual's duty is to do what he wants to do, to think whatever he likes, to be accountable to no one but himself, to challenge every idea and every person."
~ Jean-Paul Sartre  Thank you Lady in Silk..."


There were such differences between Us, and the thousands of miles...

Yet the light our hearts shared, which has been connecting us so far, allow our souls to travel around the globe, 
leaping through the space and time...

And find each other this way,

I must have done something really good,
to ever deserve such great friends...

We might have lost the time that we once shared together,
but we surely could have the bright and better tomorrow ahead of Us...

From the deepest part of my soul,
allow me to send my deepest gratitude,
with this note...



Bunch of Love,

Rainbow

Embrace Everything about LOVE...

I had been badly bleeding,
as my heart had been brutally broken, 

along the way to embrace everything about LOVE,

yet the journey continued on... 

LOVE could have been my strength, 
as it is also my weakness,
the way LOVE showered me with all its blessings, 

after it got me so cursed...

The energy manifest out of LOVE,
flows like the dynamic yin and yang...

Mostly it flies so high in the multi dimensions realm 

over my heart, soul and spirit. 

Sometime it's just lingering in the heart and mind emotionally,
makes me want to pick my phone and call you, just to fill the void,
and quench the thirst of missing you...

Other time it is even dropped lower beyond the twilight zone, 
makes me wonder how it would taste like,
to touch your flesh and blood...

But above all,
the thoughts and feelings,
generate a high level creativity,
while I am around you...

Manifest in all the flowing texts I wrote,
the words I can't hardly believe were mine...

#GetaLIFE
#BeALIVE 

Choice, Chance and Change...

Raising Our Awareness in 2016

1. Live with full capacity, as we love the life with full intensity. So we would do anything in our power to grow and make this life a better place for the one inside and the tiny universe where we share this life with.

2. Everyone deserve their dream, so dream big, help ourselves to make it all come true by creating a dream network in our environment.

3. Surround our days with people who can ignite soul to soul positive connection. Work with the doers who can stimulate all of our potency and capacity work in their optimum velocity, then accelerate...

4. Always hope for the best, yet prepare for the worst, so we can anticipate all the potential problems and improve the actions to make things better.

5. Expect nothing and appreciate everything, so we can be ready for the unexpected, as we learn to live in gratitude with all the blessing we have.

6. We might be only one person for the world, but for some particular persons, our presence might worth the world.

7. Never hesitate of feeling a Self LOVE and spread the understanding how LOVE will keep us alive. Because this Earth need humanity to understand, their happiness lays in the heart of TRUE LOVER.

Heaven help those who help themselves...
Be Happy...
Stay SHINE...

My Flashlight...

"I see the shadows long beneath the mountain topI'm not afraid when the rain won't stopCause you light the wayYou light the way, you light the way
I got all I need when I got you and Ilook around me, and see sweet lifeI'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlightYou're gettin’ me, gettin’ me through the nightCan’t stop my heart when you shinin’ in my eyesCan’t lie, it’s a sweet lifeI'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin’ me, gettin’ me through the nightCause you're my flash light..."

I've been living my life with this song plays in my head for this past few days,
as the lyric dance in my heart, among all the lucid dreams I've been through,
along with the dams of thoughts and feelings in my horizon...

Makes me feel like hanging on a roller coaster ride in the twilight zone,

that could fly my soul higher than the stars, 

then drop my mind off to the deepest part of my ocean heart...

Almost like keeping the firework cracks inside of me, 

that could cause my heart skip a beat,

as I get the butterfly effect all over my blood system...

Now I feel a warm flow of energy is bursting 
in the innermost part of my being, 
that makes me glow with happiness and hope...

After all this while, 
finally I have the silver lining brightness surround me, 
I find the flashlight that might guide me 
through the path to a comfort and secure place 
that feels like home...

Dear God,
I'm tired of running,

Will you please show me
the way to come home...???