Existence Track...

Those who haven't seen their own existence track, might easily tell us how wrong we are in living the life, and blame us on every wrong turn we made, just because they didn't agree with the road we saw, while they actually couldn't make up their mind on where they were going...

We can't ask people to stay on our way, sometimes we need to let them go by themselves. Especially when they think we distract them from their uncertain path, only because we already know where we are going...

I just know some truths...

People mostly don't know how to appreciate what they really got, until they lost them...

Not all that glitter are gold, even diamonds only shine if we see them in the presence of light. The darkness probably makes us blind for a while, but truest heart can see in the dark...

So Dear...

Bring the light back on first, before you decide anything that might give you regret.
It may be looked scattered now, but sometime we can build better after all torn apart...

That's how we saw what was missing,
so then we could put things together
in the right order...

And I believe...

Sometime we need to experience breakdown,
so we can create a breakthrough...

I can't walk this road for you, but I definitely can walk it with you,
through anything the life might provide...

Shall We...??

#itjustlifeanyway
#lettinggo
#towardsbettertomorrow
#imnotafraidofdarkness
#Godneverfallsasleep
#2theinfinitynbeyond
#lightyearwords

My Independence Song...

As the silver beam of a bright full moon recharging the earth in the cool air of the mountain...

I turn my face to the stars above, and notice that the sun is giving my wings a go to fly high, and further more...

As above so below,
As within so without...

So the melody of my universal heart starts to play in tune with the music of my soul, as all the stars in my galaxy dance in rhythm with every cells in my earthly body...

They are singing the song of Independence, as I start to whisper my words of freedom...

Now my life is taking off, flying away towards the infinity and beyond...

#GetaLIFE #ImALIVE

Connections and Collaborations on Earth...

Any connections we develop on earth is never about our own selves, it is always about the tiny universe where we share life. The very reason why we should reach and look in to our truest power within,  and let it out...

Just the way Love should become an energy tunnel to generate any connections between hearts, knowledge should be the bridge between brains to ignite the truest power within and develop synergy for solid collaboration on Earth...

It is never about what or who we are that's truly matter. It is more about how any connections we create should improve the best of us, in each collaborating stages we could reach...

For better 🌍 and all the life that ever live on...

#2TheInfinitynBeyond
#VelocitynAcceleration
#TheLawofOne

Hot Issue, Cool Solution...

Since attending the Climate Reality Leadership Corps Training in Jakarta 6 years ago, I have been performing Acts of Leadership mostly by giving presentations to schools, parent-teacher groups and community based education forums.

My last Act of Leadership was a week ago when I was invited to be the keynote speaker at the Training of Trainer for Conservation and Climate Change designed for Islamic Boarding School Network around Ujung Kulon area in West Java. This event, organized by the Islamic Study Center of Universitas Nasional and the WWF Indonesia, might be my most extraordinary activity to date.



Extraordinary Audience

I consider it extraordinary since the audience consists of a number of Kiai (Head of Islamic Boarding School), Ustadz (Islamic Teachers) and Santri (Islamic students). Most of them are male, with only one ustadzah (female Islamic Teachers) among them. Islamic teaching communities are usually dominated by male teachers; hence, being a female climate leader in this group gave me an uneasy feeling at first.

I was unusually nervous, but Mrs. Amanda Katili Niode the Manager of Climate Reality Project Indonesia, kept encouraging me to go and said that I am qualified to be a keynote speaker.  Well, she was right. My knowledge in Islamic teaching may be insignificant compared to theirs, but I was not there to speak about religion. I was there to give a 90-minute presentation on the scientific background of climate change issues and to discuss a brief plan on how to deal with this to safe our planet from burning.

Indonesia Slide Deck

On the first training day I began with the Indonesia slide deck that Mr. Al Gore showed in November last year at the 24 Hours of Reality – The Road Forward broadcast.  Furthermore, I displayed some data and charts on how CO2 and all the green house gases have caused global warming, leading to climate change.

I was really worried that the participants would fall sleep during my session, since I didn’t have a chance to translate Mr Gore’s slide into Bahasa Indonesia. Thankfully they were all attentive since I also screened four relevant and interesting video clips.

I ended my session with two dozen slides arranged earlier, to show them my best actions on the ground on how to deal with the climate crisis as a mother, teacher and citizen of this earth.

Cool Solutions

Climate change has so many problems but we have actions for solutions such as save energy, practice reduce-reuse-recycle, bike to school, use public transportation, or choose a plastic diet. Those options usually become my cool solutions offered during an Act of Leadership.

Yet, the audience on this training is totally different than the ones I am used to interact with. They are simple people from local villages around Ujung Kulon. They live in a very modest way without big carbon footprint. They neither use much fossil fuel, nor electricity.  They simply created Islamic teaching schools, built boarding houses, and even provided food for the students, without even taking a single cent from parents.

I decided to offer the audience two coolest solutions that I could think of at that particular moment. First, plant trees including mangroves, and second,  initiate urban farming, and seaweed farming, to secure their food supply. I believe that empowering this community economically will increase its ability in preserving nature.

Conflicting Interests

During the discussion audience asked significant questions, mostly about  goverment development policies that may decrease their land and what they are supposed to do. They also talked about how wild boars come to their village and ruin things.

After my session, we informally talked about Quranic verses on nature and human responsibilities. I enjoyed such conversation as it made me realize how the Islamic teaching has actually taught us how to balance life and preserve nature.

Empowering Communities

On the second training day, I helped climate leader Fachruddin Mangunjaya in facilitating discussions and helping participants write their commitments in conserving and preserving nature, as well as in climate change mitigation and adaptation.  Participants then presented their plan for all to comment. At  this point I just noticed that some in the audience did not even speak Bahasa Indonesia, because they presented their plan in Sundanese, a local language.

As a climate leader and an educator, my last Act of Leadership was really a great experience, especially knowing that in some part of Java Island, Indonesia’s most populated island, located not too far from Jakarta  there are still so many things to do.  Not only in balancing and conserving nature, but also in empowering communities so that they can live a better life, and in turn help us create a better tomorrow for the whole planet.

Lighthouse of My Life...

"Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Ku sayang dia, rindu dia
Inginkan dia...
Utuhkanlah rasa cinta di hatiku
Hanya padanya, untuk dia...

Jauh waktu berjalan kita lalui bersama, Betapa di setiap hari,
ku jatuh cinta padanya,
Dicintai oleh dia ku merasa sempurna..."

Jelang tengah malam, lantun tembang ini sudah terputar lusinan kali di telinga, beberapa titik airmata pun sudah ikut meramaikan suasana di rasaku...Memang terlalu emosional, tapi saat seperti ini emosi diperlukan agar dapat menyelami satu ruang, yang paling sulit ku kuasai dalam diri manusiaku...

Ruang yang samasekali tak punya gembok di pintu dan jendelanya, hingga siapapun bebas menyambangi, saat datang tak pernah bisa benar2 pergi lagi, tanpa merusak dinding2nya... Ruang yang pernah lantak dan berantakan, karena luka2 yang membuatku harus berkubang dalam merahnya luka dan pedihnya air mata...Ruang yang pernah begitu pengap terkepung gulita ketika legamnya amarah dan kecewa membuatnya membusuk kaku...

Begitulah kehidupan... 

Kadang terasa seperti tempat yang luar biasa tak adil, tetapi semesta selalu berputar dalam lingkaran penuh yang begitu seimbang... Gusti Allah selalu punya cara untuk menjaga manusia2 ciptaanNya yang mau mengupayakan cara terbaik demi memperjuangkan kehidupan yang bergerak, tumbuh, dan berkembang... Dia yang Tak Pernah Tidur selalu hadir lewat uluran tangan dan taburan cinta dari hati manusia terbaikNya untuk mengembalikan keseimbanganku...

Meski butuh puluhan purnama, lusinan kali jatuh dan terbentur, kumplit dengan belasan kali terperosok lubang yang sama. Sampai aku mampu belajar mengambil alih kuasa atas hatiku dan membeli kembali jiwaku yang pernah tergadai pada kegelapan...

Terimakasih sudah mau berdiri di sana menyalakan terang lentera, bagai mercusuar di tengah ganasnya samuderaku... Terimakasih sudah berkenan menantangku menerjang liarnya badai, hingga ku mampu terbang melintas di atas puting beliungnya topanku... Terimakasih atas segala CINTA yang tak pernah tersampaikan tapi nyata kurasakan, sampai ku mengerti sejatinya diriku, dan memahami indahnya CINTA tanpa syarat...

Berharap semesta membalas dengan memantulkan kembali segenap CINTA dalam bentuk Cahaya, sebagaimana yang selalu tersedia saat kegelapan menelikung jiwaku... Berdoa sepenuh damba agar keabadian berkenan mengembalikan segala kebaikan yang pernah terlukis dalam warna pelangi di diri, hingga kelak menjadi Cahaya yang membiaskan terang di kehidupan selanjutnya...

Semoga...

The Truest Truth...

A student who knocks on my box chat with a head full of ideas and questions, always excite me more than anything in the world. Last week this student wrote an article and show me.  Interesting article, and I can't stop myself to question what she wrote...

And I believe this dialog is really worth reading, I decided to post this as  a blog because some of the parts I wrote, need a #Note2Myself sticky label...

Naf : I'm so truthful and truth can always be seen in my eyes...

Me : I like this statement... but I wonder which truth you're talking about...? Yours or the truth most people agree of...

Naf : HEHEHE im not sure with the 'im so truthful' either but i like the truth. I appreciate truth more than anything else. Ironically, sometimes i myself do have problem with realizing the truth, yes?

Me : Hahaha... Because there's a lot of versions in truth, like it has too many faces... You need the truest truth, real truth the innermost part of you representing...

Naf : So i need to find the truest truth?

Me : Or more over... hear n observe it within you...

Naf : The truth..
Of what? Exactly?

Me : Of anything... Like the statement... "you need to be true to your heart"...

Naf : Yeaaahh.. True
I want to be better...

Me : You tend to follow the most acceptable truth to your mind...

Being better is depending on how you see good n bad in life... Which both are illusion. Unless you know your own truth...

Better means closer to your path...

Naf : You tend to follow the most acceptable truth to your mind...

Can you please explain further..?

Me : Finding the truth takes courage to choose, not walking on mainstream journey...

Since truth isn't always what you think is true, truth needs the feeling to feel good about it...

Naf : How can good and bad be illusions?

Me : It's a matter of perspective and perception... Depends on where you're standing...

With your ability to use your brain... you need the ability to learn from all perspectives and perceptions possible without judging if that's good or bad...

Naf : I need practice...

Me : Sometimes we need the ability to walk the road less traveled... Try writing, it is the best practice to see where you stand...

And don't worry of practicing... I've learned to see my truth a lifetime, and I haven't mastered it yet...

Muslim world force us to live in a box, but those with the ability to see beyond the horizon, will never see any box...

Naf : The muslim world.. I would say its the people, the community who force us to live in the box. But those who truly is a muslim should be able to see beyond the horizon.

Because real muslims are made to make the world a better place, right? We have to be able to see beyond the box. The box is just a boundary people make, isnt it?

Me : That's why I say in Muslim world... not as Muslim in particular... 

Look at what those who claim to be Good Muslim do to Ahok...

Yes dear... we should not see a box... 

The universe is our limits... All the galaxies are expanding... 

Even the diameter of Milky way grows from 100k light year to 150k light year...

That's why I taught you to define your truest truth... Never let any box or boundaries define your truth...

Naf : I think it'll take time for me to completely understand this but thanks, mak(:

Me : Hahaha... you need a journey to understand what I wrote...

It's like I'm showing you the road map I traveled... You will never see what it's really like until you travel your own journey... Then you will draw your own road map, which most probably will be different than mine...

Like showing you a place on google map... you won't understand what I'm showing until you go down the place I show you...

Naf : Yeaaah true...

Me : Sometimes thing will turn out wrong before it's heading to the right direction...Fear will never get you anywhere... Since, bravery isn't about the absence of fear, but more about the ability to handle them...

Naf : True true... But i'm not sure what i must do...

Me : Listen to your heart...
Silence your mind...

Naf : Its not easy.-. ... Tell me how..? I tend to think things through, Not feel...
Tho ive just learned that feelings, and what the heart says is as important, 

silencing the mind have never been easy to do...

Me : Practice... Moreover Be honest and true to your heart... 

Good is not always looks right.. But it does feels right...

*Courtesy of Nafisa Athiya, Grade 10, 

School of Human Student www.smasoh.com

The Place I Call Home

People might see me as a weird package,  who's full of anomalies...  

Yet one of my valuable friends once  told me, the measurement of my normality should be counted based on the series of my abnormalities. If the LIFE inside me still feels like a collection of paradoxes, even for my own self, then I should really consider, everything is NORMAL.  It's really good to believe that.  Then I start accepting all my anomalies in seeing LIFE, as if I am born to create new pattern to live instead of fitting in ...

Embracing my anomalies felt like finding heaven is a place on earth, when few months back, I read my eldest girl wrote about my biography, for her English assignment. 

"She has a different style in almost everything. The world in her eyes is a whole different thing from what you see. That’s one thing I like the most from my mom. She always sees things from a weird perspective. But somehow that’s mostly what helps people... "

It is really good to know that my own flesh and blood is accepting me as I am. This fact really give me abundance of energy to face the future, knowing that I have brought up an open mind young lady for the tiny universe where we share this LIFE.  Moreover, this LIFE continued to give me even better  things to live with, when the universe allow me to start a brand new journey with you.

Last week,  I encountered a chat with the very person who helped me found my heart back in 2013. This chat made me went to sleep in tears, as if I have just dragged the darkness back. We chat about a Place to Call Home.  I guess mostly because the chat make me lost a grip of my balance.  As the morning comes up, and the first ray of my sunshine kicked in, I start to see a better ground.  

Even if the darkness was there, it is always our choice to maintain the stand, whether we will choose to stand in the dark side, or we will step on a higher ground where the light is shining. People might come and go to show us the twilight zone. Yet it is us who must learn how to keep the light on.  So we don't have to accept that anyone who come and asist us, as the only source of light we have. 

Especially for the restless soul, who's been broken and torn apart like mine. I thought I have been turning on the light inside me. But I was wrong, the journey still continued on. As I realized it takes abundance of brightness to bring out everything inside the place where my soul is scattered.

As I ever wrote in my blog few months back, after I went on a soul journey to Solo, Magelang and Ngawi. On one event, I met a long lost soul who showed me that I wasn't home yet. My soul is so restless, I still need a place to call home. This is also felt Like playing back all my own Déjà vu episodes, as I am collecting every pieces of my broken soul.

I wouldn't dare to imagine where this newest episode of my life journey will take us.  But where ever it might lead, I have fate, it will be worth the effort. For this journey really give me a brand new insight.  Eversince 

I start this journey with you,  I sense a high tide of energy is igniting inside of me.  The energy give me a glimpse of a silver lining brightness that is spotting on the road I am travelling.  The light that might 

finally show my restless soul a way to the very Place I Call Home.  

T

his should be my time to wrap everything up.  If all the truths I have gathered along my journey to get my scattered soul integrated are the truest truth, then I should be able to find it written somewhere in the road map you hold.

God provides me teachers from all over the planet, to challenge my truths and show me how to be a complete human. He sent people to allow me located my heart. He let others show me how to find my God Spot. He even sent many broken souls as mirror to show me how my mind, heart and soul actually wired. 

Now He sent you... 

I will never be able to thank you enough for walking this journey with me.  All I know, when we did something to help the life, the universe will smile at us and return the favor in the most surprising way. Looks like it is my turn to get the surprise, I ho

pe you equally get something good from what we reveal together.

As I begin to understand, no matter how close we are to an enlightenment, that allow us to use The Light Saber to slice into the depth of other people soul. We could never be able to slice into our own depth alone. Just the way we will never be able to see our own ears. 

We certainly need a mirror to get all the brightness around us reflected into the darkness we unconsciously keep inside. At the secret corner of the soul where we locked our deepest fear in a Pandora box, which is placed so secluded and hidden, even from my own consciousness...

May The Force be Upon Us...

So this journey will finally show my way to The Place I Call HOME...

Hopefully...

#StarlightSeed

#TheJourneyContinueOn

True Colors of The Starlights

I know,
I've been burying you in thunders and storms...

But You know,
I can possibly give you a touch of starlights and raindrops too,
So you can paint this life with the colors of Rainbow...

Who knows,
You might also learn the art of flying above the storm along the way...

Since flesh and blood always have space and time obstacles, 
I think we should blend our soul and connect our heart, 
then press the telepathic button on...

So we can have access to each other brain in real-time...

I believe that will be a briliant way to collide our starlights energy, 
in order to do our part in raising up
the awareness and consciousness of this planet..


What do you think...???

May all the stars int the universe wish us the best of Luck... 
For the path we must walk on with dignity, faith, 
bravery, honesty and integrity...

Especially, in embracing the dedication and commitment

to share a little that we know with the whole race  of mankind...

So we will have a better tomorrow
which full of happiness and love,

then we shall live in peace and harmony...

It ain't gonna be easy, 
but definitely will worth everything we do,
as we learnt to give our best shot...

Heaven help those 
who help themselves...

‪#‎StartrekModeOn‬

‪#‎IntergalacticAmbassador‬

#‎CollectiveEvolution

The Highest Dream...

A Soulmate  wrote to me…
“Wish you reach your highest dream…”
Make me think of What is actually The Highest Dream…???

And suddenly I just wrote this…

The Highest Dream is the place where we meet our real destiny
 The one reason we are created here in the universe
As I always believe our destiny is written and rewrite
according to the way  we live our lives…

So The Highest Dream is likely expanding
There will be no certain point to reach
It is more about the journey to get there…

As Parents,
We want our children to reach their highest dream
But we must realize there is no way for  Us
to tell our children about the path to reach higher
unless  we have really been there..

So Let’s start to find the star in us
and walk our journey to reach The Highest Dream
before we help our children finding their own star
and walking on their own path to reach The Highest Dream

Please do help Us, God...

"Somewhere over the rainbow
Way up high,
There's a land that I heard of
Once in a lullaby.
Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true."
~ Jason Castro
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=34I7LZwQdes&feature=related

When We Say Wait and See...

Heaven will help changing things
for people who try to change their life...

So We can only say wait and see,
after We have finished doing our part
in make a difference...
 

Then nothing more We can do except waiting,
for the final result to come...

We must have the strong faith
that new things will come for the best

and Better Tomorrow does exist...

Finding, Loving and Passionately Living The Life to Feel Alive...

This is come from My Personal Experience, wrote spontaneously in facebook Comments Box... On the Group She's Always a Woman Post :

"When a woman makes the choice to marry, to have children; in one way her life begins but in another way it stops. You build a life of details.You become a mother, a wife and you stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. And then you're expected to move again only you don't remember what moves you because no-one has asked in so long. Not even yourself. You never in your life think that love like this can happen to you." - The Bridges of Madison County

I was lost completely in Motherhood that taken all my heart, mind and soul... I love My Children and Husband... And gave... in myself 100%... For Giving birth and nurture my 4 children... 3 of them born only in 2 years 10 months... I breastfeed all of them myself, never less than 2 years each... So can you imagine how drawn I was in Love I provide to all the members I have on board...

Although I don't really care of my personal soul and heart need... Because, having children is fulfill me completely at that time... Just by looking at their smile and laughter I feel complete... And giving My Husband a comfort shelter for him to be 'reborn' everyday. That was enough to take all my time...

It was going on until my 9 years in marriage... Then something happen that slap my face... A sister in law come to my home and said "Don't you want to make money on your own... You're still young and educated...!"

It's really not about money, at all... I look in the mirror and see a woman without future of her own... Her only pride is her children and family... She hasn't done anything to for herself and for this world..  (I always dream, my life must mean something to the world.)

I don't want this kind of life... My children are growing... They no longer need 100% of their mother... So I decided to make The Change...

Physically I was look too old, worn and fat.. I'm only 159 cm with 65 kg.. Then the plan was started simply, by making commitment to back in shape again... In 3 months only, I lost 10 kg while still breastfeed my youngest boy...

I got my shape back... And as bonus... I was reborn... Because, the spirit and flame inside me is back too... I started to look for things I can do passionately... Based at home... I can find a good enough nanny to replace me at home... If there's so we probably cant afford them...

Because nothing can replace a woman to do her professional work as a mother... Nobody is good enough to give only the best for her children... The best care, protection, plan, education and love...

But The Mighty Allah never fall asleep... He show me the way to do something for this world from Home... He make me start to write again, as it was my hobby... I share my experience in facebook... My account start from March 2009, and in April 2009 I created a Smart Parenting with Love community Group  in facebook too...

By writing and gathering with people with same concern... I started to feel alive again... And in March 2010, some of my articles was asked by a publisher to be a book without I even need to print it in hard copy...

After the book publish, I was asked to tell my experience on stage... And now here I am... A new me... with mission in life... taking back my life again after gave them all to my family...

The Points You need to learn from my experience... Even if your life trapped at home because of your mothering duty...

Nothing... I really mean NOTHING... can stop your heart, mind and soul to move... You can always do something with passion from home as long as you care enough for the life inside yourself to realize what you really want... Don't feel trapped at home, achieve more...!! Everything is Possible... As long as you keep on dreaming, think big and take action to make it come true... Go beyond yourself...

Finding, loving and passionately living yourself as a woman... is the very important to be a professional mother.. Who knows exactly what her children and husband need, and give the best for them without loosing herself... I wish more woman can be as happy as I am now... This Earth need Happier Women to do something... Because, She's always a Woman... Rite...???  Woman must keep on moving in order to do something for the world...

Not just a choice, happiness is a challenge too... We must fight for the happiness we need... just in case there isn't one in the options we have...Then We can make more options... It's possible, for we have so much love to share with the world...

Bunch of Love,
Arifah H.