Take My Breath Away...

I'm breathless, each time You share a glimpse of passionate kisses, then You take my breath away...

The Love I never read, yet stated in so many ways each time your existence crossed mine, when You take my breath away...

Deep inside I know this is no longer the game I used to play, for my heart skip a beat every time your name pop up on my screen, there You take my breath away...

The Love is purely flowing, as the passion is infinitely glowing at the most sacred place of my being, where You take my breath away...

Now and forever, do take my breath away...

Hardcore Grounding...

When I let my flesh and blood rest peacefully, on the naked ground, where the earth energy generating a vortex flow beneath me, as the sun ray caressing my skin...

Suddenly all of my nerves system from head to toes were activated, synchronizing with the spiraling energy which was glorifying around me...

As if my battery was automatically recharging, on the very island, where people used to celebrate Ra/Surya Dev power as The God of Sun...

Like a young Phoenix, who's born from their own ashes right after the old one burned itself, as each and every cells on my body embracing the energy tide. I was reborn...

As I was resurrecting the flesh and blood, I am reinventing my soul. Now I am ready for the twin flame sacred dance with Mother Earth...

#SpreadingLightnLove
#Working4PeacenHarmony
#StarLightVoyager

Being with You...

Being with You... Means discovering a passageway to jump over the space and cheat the time.  As if the soul steps on a bright tunnel that bring me closer to you...

Being with you... Means allowing the life within dancing around the multidimensional space, where illusion shade reality, at the twilight zone when the light touch the dark shadow inside...

Being with you... Means tasting the movement of each seconds in life, standing before the very mirror, where the darkest shadow inside honestly reflected...

Being with You... Means embracing each faces of LOVE which come inside in so many forms, peeling each veils that covers every darkest secrets, until time is right for the clarity of soul revealed. So I can taste all colors of Rainbow from the unconditional LOVE within...

Being with You... Means permitting the collaboration between the heart and soul in order to unite any form of differences, until our sacred union creates synergy...

Being with You... Means wishing with all the hopes inside, to find the maps and the compass, so one day I can walk my way back HOME...

My gratitude for every chance of Being with You, wishing whatever we share in Life will never come to an End...

Heaven Helps...

The Infinite Journey of LOVE...

My spirit will always surround yours in prayers, everytime I feel you in my heartbeats...

My soul will always enggage with yours in a transcending journey, everytime our life path crossed...

My mind will always want to LIGHT the candle of knowledge with yours, everytime we get a chance to share the little that we know, as our life continuously  transform...

My heart will always be there to whisper all the words of BEAUTY to awake yours...

The warmest vibe of my energy will always want to envelope yours, if only we ever have the space to meet in a collision course at the highest top of my dream land... 

My fingers will also long to be there caressing each part of your being that's longed to taste the very touch of TRUE LOVE...

As every cells in my being long to be with you, every nerves in me send the electrical sparks towards your being, so every drops of my blood vibrates the highest level of energy that will fly our conscious souls towards the infinity and beyond...

If only you would feel Me...

Let's just share the comfort of LOVE, LIGHT, HOPE, and HARMONY to the UNIVERSE, then we will eventually glide this sacred twin flame dance in life eternally...

So Help Us God...

The Less 0,01 and The Extra 0,02...

These two exponential equations show us what I've always meant when I said to the infinity and beyond...

In order to define our infinity, we need to determine the spectrum of pain that we could endure, in order to walk the extra mile that will make a total difference in our life, if only we would go a bit further beyond it...

Most people might refuse to understand our vision and tell us to stop going that way, because the road we see is a total nonsense for them. Yet, if we could visualize a clear vision, no matter how absurd it is for others, we might actually have seen our way. Just then we must be prepare to press the gas and speed up, like we have no break nor tomorrow...

Although we don't have the luxury of knowing where  our infinity exactly is, if we could determine that we would go beyond it, then we might actually go through any limitation. So then we grow to become an infinite  creature...

Also we'd better keep in mind, as we set our goal, we need to contribute in something greater than our lives...

If we could visualize these two equations in the way we set goals in life, then we will know that no one can set 'what is required' for us, but ourselves...

Because in reality, sometimes I felt even the best isn't good enough. Many times, I need to do better than my best.  So the less 0,01 or extra 0,02 can mean more than just a number for me...

Hopefully..

The Place I Call Home

People might see me as a weird package,  who's full of anomalies...  

Yet one of my valuable friends once  told me, the measurement of my normality should be counted based on the series of my abnormalities. If the LIFE inside me still feels like a collection of paradoxes, even for my own self, then I should really consider, everything is NORMAL.  It's really good to believe that.  Then I start accepting all my anomalies in seeing LIFE, as if I am born to create new pattern to live instead of fitting in ...

Embracing my anomalies felt like finding heaven is a place on earth, when few months back, I read my eldest girl wrote about my biography, for her English assignment. 

"She has a different style in almost everything. The world in her eyes is a whole different thing from what you see. That’s one thing I like the most from my mom. She always sees things from a weird perspective. But somehow that’s mostly what helps people... "

It is really good to know that my own flesh and blood is accepting me as I am. This fact really give me abundance of energy to face the future, knowing that I have brought up an open mind young lady for the tiny universe where we share this LIFE.  Moreover, this LIFE continued to give me even better  things to live with, when the universe allow me to start a brand new journey with you.

Last week,  I encountered a chat with the very person who helped me found my heart back in 2013. This chat made me went to sleep in tears, as if I have just dragged the darkness back. We chat about a Place to Call Home.  I guess mostly because the chat make me lost a grip of my balance.  As the morning comes up, and the first ray of my sunshine kicked in, I start to see a better ground.  

Even if the darkness was there, it is always our choice to maintain the stand, whether we will choose to stand in the dark side, or we will step on a higher ground where the light is shining. People might come and go to show us the twilight zone. Yet it is us who must learn how to keep the light on.  So we don't have to accept that anyone who come and asist us, as the only source of light we have. 

Especially for the restless soul, who's been broken and torn apart like mine. I thought I have been turning on the light inside me. But I was wrong, the journey still continued on. As I realized it takes abundance of brightness to bring out everything inside the place where my soul is scattered.

As I ever wrote in my blog few months back, after I went on a soul journey to Solo, Magelang and Ngawi. On one event, I met a long lost soul who showed me that I wasn't home yet. My soul is so restless, I still need a place to call home. This is also felt Like playing back all my own Déjà vu episodes, as I am collecting every pieces of my broken soul.

I wouldn't dare to imagine where this newest episode of my life journey will take us.  But where ever it might lead, I have fate, it will be worth the effort. For this journey really give me a brand new insight.  Eversince 

I start this journey with you,  I sense a high tide of energy is igniting inside of me.  The energy give me a glimpse of a silver lining brightness that is spotting on the road I am travelling.  The light that might 

finally show my restless soul a way to the very Place I Call Home.  

T

his should be my time to wrap everything up.  If all the truths I have gathered along my journey to get my scattered soul integrated are the truest truth, then I should be able to find it written somewhere in the road map you hold.

God provides me teachers from all over the planet, to challenge my truths and show me how to be a complete human. He sent people to allow me located my heart. He let others show me how to find my God Spot. He even sent many broken souls as mirror to show me how my mind, heart and soul actually wired. 

Now He sent you... 

I will never be able to thank you enough for walking this journey with me.  All I know, when we did something to help the life, the universe will smile at us and return the favor in the most surprising way. Looks like it is my turn to get the surprise, I ho

pe you equally get something good from what we reveal together.

As I begin to understand, no matter how close we are to an enlightenment, that allow us to use The Light Saber to slice into the depth of other people soul. We could never be able to slice into our own depth alone. Just the way we will never be able to see our own ears. 

We certainly need a mirror to get all the brightness around us reflected into the darkness we unconsciously keep inside. At the secret corner of the soul where we locked our deepest fear in a Pandora box, which is placed so secluded and hidden, even from my own consciousness...

May The Force be Upon Us...

So this journey will finally show my way to The Place I Call HOME...

Hopefully...

#StarlightSeed

#TheJourneyContinueOn

The Traveler's Words...

This connection is really make sense... You understand the road map, based on the truth written by your experience ... I traveled the road, based on the guide written in the stars... If those two can walk together, what kind of understanding that can be revealed...

Mankind is in desperate need of explanation... the very one that can penetrate their mind, reach their heart and enlightening their soul... so they know where their God Spot is... then the spirit can carry on their duty to shine...

Even myself... I'm still struggling in my own twilight zone to keep myself steady to hang on the brightened ground... That's my line of duty... my battle ground to help people transcending their own soul... Darkness is the place where I carry on my duty to shine... While my highest dream is to spread all the beauty I collect in my life including the beauty of all the teachings that I finally understand... So the life after me could learn that there still hopes in humanity, to heal the world...

I surf the tide of energy that's been flowing to you so far and raise my own vibe... I guess, from our discussion about LIFE, I can highlight two parts that we could share... The self mastery and the existence track in the tiny world where we're living, how that makes us a complete human, so we can find our truest role in the universe...

We know, some people simply choose only to share their life in bright area, they often shut down the man inside from his fundamental needs as human, so they will never get in touch with their own darkness... They make their spirit content with the devotion towards God and Heaven... Yet they might simply missed the best thing the LIFE could ever give, like LOVE and Intimacy in multidimensional level, mostly because they turn off their own body-mind-soul-heart needs, rather than analyze them and looking for legal way to fulfill  the needs...
 
The body-mind-soul-heart connection must be solid to reach the goal carried by our spirit. The next would be how we connect to the closest LIFE around us... The way we deal with the darkness inside will help us understand the darkness inside people around us.

I found that we are all equipped with our own devils to deal with... each and every one of us are born with a dark space where the devils could enter in any ways... That will be our weakness... most people work so hard to cover their weakness with their strength... so they don't even see their weakness... What most people don't understand, that weakness is actually our growth spot, once we are able to convert the weakness into a significant growth spot...

As human, our body-mind-soul-heart connection has needs to fulfill... We can't expect the human in us to work in full capacity, without fulfilling this human needs... I learn that hunger is not only in the body, as food is not always the one we put into our mouth... Mind-soul-heart connection need their specific nutrition to preserve their function... As spirit needs us to do every spiritual journey to reach the God Spot, to work as it should be... 
How would we fulfill our heart needs, if we don't understand LOVE... And how would we fulfill your soul needs, if we reject the need to find our passion in LIFE...

We are all equipped with the real guidance of The Truest Truth... Yet the first thing we need is to recollect the truth inside us... Body mind, soul, and heart, they have their own truth in fulfilling their needs... So we can trust them to carry on their duty to make the human in us work in the optimum capacity... We need to learn how to be true to our own selves... The Honesty is essential part in the quest to seek for our own Truest Truth...

What I learn from my own journey is to find LOVE every where I go, towards everything I see, using the eyes in my head and in my heart. So I can manage to really get A LIFE and to be ALIVE. In the name of LIGHT, PEACE and HARMONY... That's my order, my role in the tiny universe where I'm living.

I use The Power of Words to work in spreading LOVE, LIGHT, PEACE and HARMONY. The soul whispering the words, that my fingers have to write through my heart... So locating the heart is an essential part of our journey, as soul-heart-spirit connection will give us autopilot journey... The only problem is to silent the mind... who tend to see everything in true or false... using the data the mind ever collects and analyzes...

May the truest truth inside, give us the way to find the guidance from every source of starlight, in every step we make. As we hope for the air of LOVE fill every cells in our body in every breath we take...

Heaven Helps....

Embrace Everything about LOVE...

I had been badly bleeding,
as my heart had been brutally broken, 

along the way to embrace everything about LOVE,

yet the journey continued on... 

LOVE could have been my strength, 
as it is also my weakness,
the way LOVE showered me with all its blessings, 

after it got me so cursed...

The energy manifest out of LOVE,
flows like the dynamic yin and yang...

Mostly it flies so high in the multi dimensions realm 

over my heart, soul and spirit. 

Sometime it's just lingering in the heart and mind emotionally,
makes me want to pick my phone and call you, just to fill the void,
and quench the thirst of missing you...

Other time it is even dropped lower beyond the twilight zone, 
makes me wonder how it would taste like,
to touch your flesh and blood...

But above all,
the thoughts and feelings,
generate a high level creativity,
while I am around you...

Manifest in all the flowing texts I wrote,
the words I can't hardly believe were mine...

#GetaLIFE
#BeALIVE 

My Flashlight...

"I see the shadows long beneath the mountain topI'm not afraid when the rain won't stopCause you light the wayYou light the way, you light the way
I got all I need when I got you and Ilook around me, and see sweet lifeI'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlightYou're gettin’ me, gettin’ me through the nightCan’t stop my heart when you shinin’ in my eyesCan’t lie, it’s a sweet lifeI'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're gettin’ me, gettin’ me through the nightCause you're my flash light..."

I've been living my life with this song plays in my head for this past few days,
as the lyric dance in my heart, among all the lucid dreams I've been through,
along with the dams of thoughts and feelings in my horizon...

Makes me feel like hanging on a roller coaster ride in the twilight zone,

that could fly my soul higher than the stars, 

then drop my mind off to the deepest part of my ocean heart...

Almost like keeping the firework cracks inside of me, 

that could cause my heart skip a beat,

as I get the butterfly effect all over my blood system...

Now I feel a warm flow of energy is bursting 
in the innermost part of my being, 
that makes me glow with happiness and hope...

After all this while, 
finally I have the silver lining brightness surround me, 
I find the flashlight that might guide me 
through the path to a comfort and secure place 
that feels like home...

Dear God,
I'm tired of running,

Will you please show me
the way to come home...???

The Lighthouse

Have a beautiful start of 2016, I could only wish You will reach the highest ground of understanding that will fly your soul and spirit higher and further, in making your life worthy for the world, as it is for me...

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

How Feminine and Masculine Power are United in Sex...

I should say thank you to those who shared dating experience with me and talked about their relation in real life. Their experiences strengthen my understanding, that sex need more feelings than just lust, as relationship need to go a bit further before touching the real sex ground. I'm thinking of one topic that I haven't got chance to discuss it out loud, over and over,  to post here in my blog. But a forum discussion on sex and spirituality had brought this out immaturely a few months ago…

I extremely believe that God Must Be Sexy because He create one beautiful way to keep human race from extinction. As Male and Female created with sexuality power in their Feminine and Masculine default factory setting to  perform reproduction duty on earth.

Feminine and Masculine power are united in sex, which is originally created with main action to produce children. But then again The God must be Sexy to allow Us having very sexy feeling in performing that duty. They also come in a very thrilling and beautiful direction order. Then, somehow human mind create so many additional guiding book on this assignment.

Until today human found a way to enjoy that sexy task without producing human baby with a tool called contraception. This is a big breakthrough in human science for human race which then allowed sex to become another biological need just like air, water and food in human life. 

Suddenly we no longer need family to have sex, more over nowadays we can even have sex without real relationship between male and female. We don’t need to be husband and wife to have sex like in the old days, we don’t even have to be lovers or have the feeling of love to have sexual relation. 

Suddenly my vocabulary notice new funny terms like friends with benefit, fuck buddy and leghumper! What a big breakthrough for my traditional way of thinking as an eastern woman. And from what Uncle Google provide for my understanding this breakthrough is responsible in what so called a sexual chaos in the world.

I would think this fact cause a downfall in many marriage life, because somehow in this jet era there are still people who has old way of thinking even in their legal commitment about healthy sexual relation. They do have every right to perform all the activity in a sex relation provided by the vow of marriage but never really use it at the most.  

So too bad the marriage then fail in giving the male or the female in it a healthy sex relation. That definitely can create an unbalance life for the married couples. And as the balance grow out of control they start to find what they need in other place. The masculine and feminine power start to get lost in fulfilling their basic need for healthy sex relation.

Every mature male and female deserve to have the healthy sexual relation. The level of it is measured by how close those two power are attached to each other. We can always touch the person we have sex with physically but it requires more attachment to really touch the spirit, so body and soul can be blended in sexual interaction.

As a traditional woman, I believe one of the most important ingredient of body and soul connection in sex is love. As sure as the sun need to rise every morning, we do need love to create a happy family. But since now we can have sex without family, then it is possible for any of us to have sex without love, simply just to fill our biological need.

Then my questions out of this situation are :
- Will that sexual relation quench all the thirst and hunger in every single masculine and feminine power who experience this action…???
- Or in the other hand this sexual exploration without love tend to leave a void in human balance even more…???

I'm an overly romantic female who is addicted to love. I wish I can assure me that sex is a perfect act of love, come only to bring more closeness when two people in love, as their souls become one.

I can't imagine having sex without being in love with the very person I am involved in sexual relation with. Like I would rather not eat without appetite. I just wish to live this life at the most with full capacity, as I wish to love with full intensity ...

Like Bon Jovi said :

“It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks…”