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What was There, Still Is...

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I finally came to the understanding... What I thought I've known is actually nothing, when I compare them with all the unknown things, that's been shown every now and then in this tiny universe where I live...Last April I met a writer who wrote about everything that I've been wondering, these past few years. Somehow, he show me that everything that I've questioned were actually there, for a Reason... Bring me to a new conclusion... My life journey is not only about finding all the answers. It is more about knowing what questions I actually should ask, in life...Everything we've ever questioned, were actually the clue to more questions. That's how life bring us all the puzzles to solve, so we will eventually see the answers...
Just the way The Light shines through all the blank spots we hide inside of Us. Layer by layer, from corner to corner... The truest truth will eventually peel itself, and revealed before the eyes in our hearts...Every pieces of new knowledg…

Hardcore Grounding...

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When I let my flesh and blood rest peacefully, on the naked ground, where the earth energy generating a vortex flow beneath me, as the sun ray caressing my skin...Suddenly all of my nerves system from head to toes were activated, synchronizing with the spiraling energy which was glorifying around me...As if my battery was automatically recharging, on the very island, where people used to celebrate Ra/Surya Dev power as The God of Sun...Like a young Phoenix, who's born from their own ashes right after the old one burned itself, as each and every cells on my body embracing the energy tide. I was reborn...As I was resurrecting the flesh and blood, I am reinventing my soul. Now I am ready for the twin flame sacred dance with Mother Earth...#SpreadingLightnLove
#Working4PeacenHarmony
#StarLightVoyager

Existence Track...

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Those who haven't seen their own existence track, might easily tell us how wrong we are in living the life...They might blame us on every wrong turn we made, just because they didn't agree with the road we chose, while they actually couldn't make up their mind on where they were going...We couldn't ask people to stay on our way, sometimes we must let them free to go...Especially when they think we distract them from their own way, only because we know where we are going...I just know these truths...★ People mostly don't know how to appreciate what they really got, until they lost them.★ Not all that glitter are gold, diamonds only shine if we see them in the presence of light.★ The darkness probably makes us blind for a while, but truest heart can see in the dark.So Dear...Please make sure of turning the light back on first, before you decide  anything in life, that might give you regret...#itisjustlifeanyway  #towardsbettertomorrow #imnotafraidofdarkness
#Godnever…

R E V O L U T I O N...

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It's always amazing when time took me to the new places,  and allow me to meet people, that I've never seen before... Not only my energy is lingering in that place, the way it leaves trace on each soul I've touched. I've also taken abundance of energy from the place and those people... And my evolution is starting, synchronizing and constructing a brand new vibe of energy from an indefinite place inside of me...This whole process is igniting a gigantic movement in me, like a dam of thoughts and feelings were looking for a path to flow. Just the way my soul is finding a new space to grow from the inside out...It's just a matter of time...
Hopefully...#velocityandacceleration
#towardstheinfinityandbeyond
#REVOLUTION

Ground Zero

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I'm at ground zero...

Stuck in the middle of darkness,
struggling to see light...

Drowning to the bottom of the sea,
reaching out for fresh air...

Trapped by the thunder and typhoon...
surviving to fly above the storm...

Telling myself,
this one shall pass too...

#TwilightZone
#FlyingAboveTheStorm


Hot Issue, Cool Solution...

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Since attending the Climate Reality Leadership Corps Training in Jakarta 6 years ago, I have been performing Acts of Leadership mostly by giving presentations to schools, parent-teacher groups and community based education forums.

My last Act of Leadership was a week ago when I was invited to be the keynote speaker at the Training of Trainer for Conservation and Climate Change designed for Islamic Boarding School Network around Ujung Kulon area in West Java. This event, organized by the Islamic Study Center of Universitas Nasional and the WWF Indonesia, might be my most extraordinary activity to date.



Extraordinary Audience

I consider it extraordinary since the audience consists of a number of Kiai (Head of Islamic Boarding School), Ustadz (Islamic Teachers) and Santri (Islamic students). Most of them are male, with only one ustadzah (female Islamic Teachers) among them. Islamic teaching communities are usually dominated by male teachers; hence, being a female climate leader in this …

December Reflection...

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Yes I am a Teacher, and a Mother too... Sometimes the feeling is completely twisted when I have o teach my own daughter...But in between, what she wrote last week gave me tears, of joy and pride... I raised and taught a young girl to be a Woman of this Earth...She's not only my daughter nor my student... She's also a teacher of life who has important role in my soul growth...Each mother is an unfinished puzzle, until she found the hidden piece of  puzzle in her own children...I consider my self lucky, to see my own hidden piece of puzzle, in the very soul of my daughter...

Magic 12.12, Towards The End of 2016...

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Cheers, I'm Arifah...
I really am so Happy to walk with You all towards the end of 2016...

I start this blog in 2011, writing about everything the life teach me,
along with the process to make my soul growth...

I'm proud to be at your your service,
so with this note I would like to open a communication with my blog visitors,
who's been coming back n forth for blog my update...

I know that you come from all over the globe,
and I must say sorry if the past few blogs I wrote in my mother language (Bahasa Indonesia),
because haven't got the chance to rewrite it into English...

I plan to collect all my articles in Bahasa Indonesia, and re-post them here with English title,
so You could notice what I'm trying to express. I know that Google won't be competent enough,
to transliterate my articles in the way I want...   So, if You need further explanation You can email me, to <ipenk31@gmail.com> or to  <ipenk31@yahoo.com>,
I am also available on Facebook as Arifah Ha…

Love, Happiness, and Growth Spot...

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Tentang Cinta, Bahagia dan Titik TumbuhBeberapa kali aku terlibat debat serius dengan para motivator dan pendidik yang meyakini bahwa untuk melejitkan potensi kita harus selalu fokus pada kelebihan. Termasuk di dalamnya menggunakan berbagai perangkat untuk mereformat mindset demi melestarikan sugesti positif pada diri. Makanya akhir2 ini mereka yang bakulan NLP, segala rupa hypno dan mind mastery laris manis. Aslinya karena makin banyak orang jenuh dengan rutinitas hidupnya yang monoton dan membosankan, akibatnya lejitan potensi untuk menghasilkan masterpiece sulit mendapatkan energi. Hingga solusi instanpun jadi buruan.Sementara buat emak kayak aku yang punya banyak waktu berproses untuk menemukan celah2 yang terabaikan dan terlewati di dalam diri, solusi instan ternyata ga berhasil menambah produktivitas apalagi untuk menghasilkan masterpiece. Seringnya hanya ngaruh sebentar, habis itu ngelowor dan nglokro lagi. Sementara roda kehidupan terus berputar tanpa bisa diperlambat.Dalam pe…

Lighthouse of My Life...

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"Oh Tuhan ku cinta dia
Ku sayang dia, rindu dia
Inginkan dia...
Utuhkanlah rasa cinta di hatiku
Hanya padanya, untuk dia... Jauh waktu berjalan kita lalui bersama, Betapa di setiap hari,
ku jatuh cinta padanya,
Dicintai oleh dia ku merasa sempurna..."
Jelang tengah malam, lantun tembang ini sudah terputar lusinan kali di telinga, beberapa titik airmata pun sudah ikut meramaikan suasana hatiku...

Memang terlalu emosional, tapi saat seperti ini emosi diperlukan agar dapat menyelami satu ruang, yang paling sulit ku kuasai dalam diri manusiaku...
Ruang yang samasekali tak punya gembok di pintu dan jendelanya, hingga siapapun bebas menyambangi, saat datang tak pernah bisa benar2 pergi lagi, tanpa merusak dinding2nya...

Ruang yang pernah lantak dan berantakan, karena luka2 yang membuatku harus berkubang dalam merahnya luka dan pedihnya air mata...

Ruang yang pernah begitu pengap terkepung gulita ketika legamnya amarah dan kecewa membuatnya membusuk kaku...
Begitulah kehidupan... 
Kadan…

M I R R O R

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Seandainya saja dirimu mau sesaat saja mencermati, pasti akan muncul berbagai rasa menggelitik yang memberi benakmu banyak pertanyaan, demi menuntut jawab atas dialektika yang sejatinya tengah terjadi antara kau dan dia. Sesuatu yang membuatmu terkoneksi sampai sejauh ini. Seberapapun usahamu menjauh dari jerat itu, ada sesuatu yang hingga kini, selalu menuntunmu kembali padanya...
Sebentuk rasa di dalam dirimu mungkin telah lama menggugat dengan jengah, bagaimana mungkin manusia yang menjaga kesucian sepertimu terjerat sensasi duniawi yang menelikung ragamu bagai candu.  Dirimu pun sekuat kehendak berusaha menghindarinya, agar tak terjerat lagi dan lagi. Hingga pintanya tuk dapat menatap matamu, tak hendak kau kabulkan...
Sementara di bagian lain, terbersit selarik rasa yang menuntunmu agar jujur merengkuh, bahkan menikmati tarian energi yang berhasil melesatkanmu untuk terbang mengingkari ruang dan waktu, hanya untuk mereguk secawan sensasi yang ditawarkan buminya. Hingga rasa itu sen…

Being with You...

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Membersamaimu...
Berarti menemukan celah tuk lompati ruang dan menelikung waktu. Hingga jiwa seakan menapaki lorong benderang demi mendekati keberadaanmu...(Being with You... Means discovering a passageway to jump over the space and cheat the time.  As if the soul steps on a bright tunnel that bring me closer to you...)Membersamaimu...
Berarti membolehkan kehidupan dalam diri menari di ruang multidimensi, di mana ilusi membelai realita tepat di batas cakrawala, saat bayang kegelapan tersentuh zona cahaya...(Being with you... Means allowing the life within dancing around the multidimensional space, where illusion shade reality, at the twilight zone when the light touch the dark shadow inside...)Membersamaimu...
Berarti menikmati bergeraknya detik demi detik kehidupan, di hadapan cermin paling jujur, yang memantulkan bayangan tergelap diri... (Being with you... Means tasting the movement of each seconds in life, standing before the very mirror, where the darkest shadow inside honestly r…

The Existence of Humanity in Life...

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For me the existence of humanity in life always tastes more like a journey. It feels like we are rivers, running from different part of this planet... Yet we are moving under the same sun and same moon towards the same ocean. As much as we are different, our life is heading the same direction... The separation or oneness will be seen, depend on our position... If we could reach high enough we will see this planet in better perspectives as one place for all.  Even when we go higher we will see this tiny little earth is only a minor part of something way loads larger...Humanity rise n fall all the time, since the beginning of life when Habil n Qabil conflict took place... Rohingya and all other conflict on earth that cost life and blood are made for a reason by some groups of people, even the new problem occurred in Jakarta...We need to go beyond our horizon, move towards the infinity and see what's beyond it. I only see, this tiny little earth we live on couldn't afford more th…

The Truest Truth...

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A student who knocks on my box chat with a head full of ideas and questions, always excite me more than anything in the world. Last week this student wrote an article and show me.  Interesting article, and I can't stop myself to question what she wrote...
And I believe this dialog is really worth reading, I decided to post this as  a blog because some of the parts I wrote, need a #Note2Myself sticky label...
Naf : I'm so truthful and truth can always be seen in my eyes...
Me : I like this statement... but I wonder which truth you're talking about...? Yours or the truth most people agree of...
Naf : HEHEHE im not sure with the 'im so truthful' either but i like the truth. I appreciate truth more than anything else. Ironically, sometimes i myself do have problem with realizing the truth, yes?
Me : Hahaha... Because there's a lot of versions in truth, like it has too many faces... You need the truest truth, real truth the innermost part of you representing...
Na…

The Fact of Falling in Love...

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Falling in love actually is only a gate before two souls collide in universal collision. In my stage of being, I can fall in love daily to any souls that cross my path...It's not my privilege to choose whom to love,  as the love always chooses them for me. One thing for sure, Love is a powerful energy that can ignite growth out of our life, as we choose to make the world really worth living...Thank you for showing up and teach me the next level of unconditional love lesson.  Allow me to have the pride of saying, I Love You...#GetALife #BeAlive
#TowardsTheInfinitynBeyond

The Teachers...

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I have always wanted to be a Teacher. By then, I thought Teacher was only a profession and carrier option...But as the time goes by and my life grows, I noticed for all the questions I asked, not all can be answered by people who work as teachers...Later I realized for every questions answered, I will always have at least two more questions to ask...So, I stopped looking for the way to be a teacher. I enjoyed my time becoming a curious student in exploring life...Almost everyday life send me people who would teach me worth learning lessons...Now I'd like to think, teaching is a life journey for people who has been spending enough time being a student in life, who realized that the most natural consequences of this journey is a lifetime learning...How would we feel sufficient enough to be a teacher in this lifetime, once we know that we will never have enough time to learn everything about life...This journey will definitely take forever, although we are completely sure too, even f…

How We Define Love and God...

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Allow me to share the path that I've been through, not sure how my story will serve yours,  I just have to follow my own intuition...The moment I felt your energy, I just got the need to intercept it... It's like floating through the universal creative moment, which would fly me to the next transcendence path of my own spiritual enlightenment journey..Speaking of spiritual enlightenment, I would say... For me, spirituality is like swimming through the water from any river on earth... Which ever the river we follow,  all of us will end up at the same blue ocean, under the same sun and the same moon...It's also like our definition of Love or God...We should define them as we see them, and there's no right nor wrong... As human we simply allowed to face many different path, and all the differences must be seen as they are...We can only define Love or God precisely the way we see them, exactly how we found them...#ThePowerofConscience
#TowardsTheInfinityandBeyond

The Infinite Journey of LOVE...

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My spirit will always surround yours in prayers, everytime I feel you in my heartbeats...My soul will always enggage with yours in a transcending journey, everytime our life path crossed...My mind will always want to LIGHT the candle of knowledge with yours, everytime we get a chance to share the little that we know, as our life continuously  transform...My heart will always be there to whisper all the words of BEAUTY to awake yours...The warmest vibe of my energy will always want to envelope yours, if only we ever have the space to meet in a collision course at the highest top of my dream land... My fingers will also long to be there caressing each part of your being that's longed to taste the very touch of TRUE LOVE...As every cells in my being long to be with you, every nerves in me send the electrical sparks towards your being, so every drops of my blood vibrates the highest level of energy that will fly our conscious souls towards the infinity and beyond...If only you would f…

Happy 12th Anniversary, Dear...

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As we plant the kisses on your cheeks, may Allah be closer than those kisses to your mind, heart, and soul... So you will always in the need of His Love to enlighten the life inside and around You... Guide you all the way in every step you make, refresh you like the oxygen in every breath you take... Just the way each beat of your heart sends all the drops of your blood towards  every cells in your body that makes you feel
Alive...
Happy Bday Dear Fella...

Growing with My Teenage Girls...

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Being an eastern moslem mom in an islamic world is not an easy job, especially when we have the combination of an old soul, sensitive heart, and futuristic state of mind... For milion times I found myself asking the same old question, "Have I done my job as their mom good enough...?"
I know, I haven't been a living  example of how a good woman should be. I have lots of scars and  flaws, I also tend to make loads of mistakes as a woman and a mother. I have failed in so many life challenges too...
But one thing they know for sure, I am the first person on earth they can always run to, no matter how hard life give them challenge. Because,  as I learned to accept myself as I am,  I understand that the perfect start to raised my children is to embrace their imperfection, perfectly. That's how we start growing together as a team player...
I am so grateful that my girls have done their best to grow up and become a wiser young woman than I ever was,  they set an example for…