Embracing My Fate

Another sleepless nights and full of floating days. As the scattered thoughts, flashing memories and scrambled feelings were gathering around me. They were still giving me the feeling of flying in the cloudy sky around the twilight horizon.

I could feel the darkness is eventually subsided. Yet, I still have the need to look for the crystal brightness rising up along this new beginning. As the sunshine shall touch my horizon with new awareness after another stormy night.

As always the universe bring me another jigsaw puzzle to solve about my life and the life of those who share forever with me. So the journey shall continue as the brand new voyage is starting.

Life never provides me with an easy path to walk on. Now, I am perfectly realize there are so many lessons I must learn along these rough and winding roads of living.

Breaking down walls, creating new trusts and perspectives, then building up brand new understandings, as I am moving on into a totally new acceptance towards life, seems to be my steady fate to cross.

Now I know for sure, nothing in my life are worth to be scared of. All the battles I must face are worth fighting for. Every fears and flaws in my being are there to embrace with dignity and integrity, as I dedicated the life in me to create a better tomorrow.

Then I can only feel grateful as I am truly blessed with love and kindness provide by the life around me. As Heaven always send me the best souls to share energy with me in this journey. Along with all those guardian angels that always make sure every day shall worth my smiles.

So Help Me God..




Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

Dancing in The Twilight Zone

“I say a little prayer for you  
Forever, and ever you'll stay in my heart and I will love you
Forever, and ever we never will part oh, how I love you
Together, forever, that's how it must be, to live without you
Would only mean heartbreak for me…”
~ OST My Best Friend Wedding

From the second I open my eyes to the minute I hear your voice each morning
I count thousands of seconds while my feelings shift almost every minutes

Since the day we talked about the taste of rainbow
to the moment our vibrations echoed the same frequency

I felt like dancing in the twilight zone…

Sometimes I saw myself standing on the twinkling spots
where I could dance in the gleaming colors of the life

Some other times I found myself fell into the darkness
where I heard nothing but the sound of my own heartbeats

Most of the time I just floated in an un explainable empty zone
where the time and space become my delusional enemy to fight

Yet this twilight zone has been painting my days with rainbow
and dancing in the gleaming colors of this rainbow
has been allowing me to feel my soul

So I can only wish these days will never end…

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

A New Beginning...

Today is a New Beginning for the life in me...

Another Chapter to Write

in The Book of My Life...

May yesterday equipped me with everything I need
to make the best out of tomorrow...

May every day become the lesson I need
to cherish every moment as a present in life...

May the universe allow me
to live in full capacity
and grant me the ability
to love this life with full intensity...

May all the love, hopes, dreams and faith
become my loyal guide
and the everlasting energy
that I need to create a new life
where I can be fully ALIVE...

So Help Me God...

F R A G I L E

(This Fragility occur before I wrote The New Beginning, but this note was written some minutes after I saw a New Beginning... Admitting that fragility is an unavoidable part of  being human, might allow us to see our true strength...

Being strong is not only about to be unbreakable... It is also about build things up after everything in us is broken, scattered and torn apart... So I truly believe enjoying our fragility is one way to embrace our true strength...

That's how I saw My New Beginning...)


If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the color of the evening sun
Tomorrow's rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime's argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are
On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star
Like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are
How fragile we are
~Sting – Fragile

My head tends to play the songs I need to hear, from time to time, since I was a teenager.

 

Just like yesterday, when I felt so fragile.  Suddenly out of nowhere I had the need to find the song ‘Fragile’ by Sting.  As I listened to the song for the first time and embraced the words, I felt less fragile.

The way Sting sang about how fragile we are, gave me the understanding that there’s always strength hidden in all fragility we face. The words explain how the life must go on in a profound perspective.  Those words and the melody were echoing in my heart, as if telling me to enjoy every pain and embrace all the fear I faced, so then I could wash them in tears from the star.

Simply Beautiful, yet the music played the lonely sound…

The song made me have the need to dare my own loneliness and turn it into a solitude. So I will not be afraid of being alone anymore.  As I began to dare my own rage so I will live in forgiveness. 

“It’s like somebody sent you a shot of strength.
No wonder you never get knocked down,
as if you have reserves of strength
throughout the universe...“

Indeed, it is a true blessing to have what my dear friend called an instant burst of comfort from the universe, after a day feeling so fragile in a floating mode.  

As I have always believed, if we do something in the name of kindness for the universe. 
The universe will smile at us and return that kindness in the most surprising way.  I wish what I have been writing can always vibe something good for the universe,
so my life can always be worth living till the day I shall take my last breath.


Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

Life is about Trick or Treat, Or.. Just about Dare and Duel..???

Sometime life trick and trap us in some inconvenient situation,

Another time life give us a nice treat of sweet and comfort zone...

Yet in some moment we need to pick up our courage to answer a Dare,
or pack our bag with bravery to walk in a Duel...

It's just Life...

Sometime we win, another time we loose...
And not a single thing or creature worth the blaming...

Yup...!!!

We live in a growing universe,
As I am a growing creature...

The space is expanding in scale,
So is my conscious being...

All I want to do is Living this life with full Capacity,
As I dedicate my soul to love the life with full Intensity...

So....

I see The Trick and Treat also The Dare and Duel,
As a challenge that will bring the best of me out...