The Less 0,01 and The Extra 0,02...

These two exponential equations show us what I've always meant when I said to the infinity and beyond...

In order to define our infinity, we need to determine the spectrum of pain that we could endure, in order to walk the extra mile that will make a total difference in our life, if only we would go a bit further beyond it...

Most people might refuse to understand our vision and tell us to stop going that way, because the road we see is a total nonsense for them. Yet, if we could visualize a clear vision, no matter how absurd it is for others, we might actually have seen our way. Just then we must be prepare to press the gas and speed up, like we have no break nor tomorrow...

Although we don't have the luxury of knowing where  our infinity exactly is, if we could determine that we would go beyond it, then we might actually go through any limitation. So then we grow to become an infinite  creature...

Also we'd better keep in mind, as we set our goal, we need to contribute in something greater than our lives...

If we could visualize these two equations in the way we set goals in life, then we will know that no one can set 'what is required' for us, but ourselves...

Because in reality, sometimes I felt even the best isn't good enough. Many times, I need to do better than my best.  So the less 0,01 or extra 0,02 can mean more than just a number for me...

Hopefully..

Déjà vu

(Déjà vu is  the feeling of having "already lived through" something.
It is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation from an event  that currently being experienced, has already been happened in the past...)

It was a normal saturday morning until I decided to make a contact with you. A duty to create a list of people who can share their experience as guest teacher in my school urged me to reach out for some special friends, you were included. Despite the history that has disconnected us few years back, I still strongly believe, you will have something interesting to share with my students.

Yet, out of the blue You suddenly sent me a song, "Somewhere Only We Know". The song flew me to a place I never know exist, yet it has always been there. Then the chaos began as I listened to every words the song told me..

I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand,
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete...

Somehow, these words reminds me of the long journey I've been walking, since the first time we met, till the day we stopped  seeing each other, I wasn't sure why we faded. It was like you simply going on with your life, while I moved on with my own journey, running away from everything that was gone wrong, finding a place I could call home that would make me feel comfortably loved...

Oh simple thing where have you gone...?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on,
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin...
I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches of it looking at me,
Is this the place we used to love...?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of...?

Owh dear... It's really painful to hear these words. I never knew that you could ever miss us and feel that lost. Just the way I did before I walked the journey to find what is really matter in my life, as i found how True Love really meant for me. I didn't plan to leave you in such emptiness. We could have walked this road together, if only I wasn't too blind to see...

And if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know...?
This could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go,
Somewhere only we know...?

Only two weeks ago, I went on a soul journey to Solo, Magelang and Ngawi. I never thought that in that journey a question about twin soul could emerged. As I had already accept that a twin soul is something we could build, not a connection that's been setting up by the universe since the day we were born. But a meeting with a long lost soul showed me that I wasn't home yet. My soul is still so restless, I still need a place to call home...

Like playing a soundtrack of my own Déjà vu episodes, I've been listening to the two song you've sent me over and over, as I am collecting every pieces of puzzle we ever left behind us...

You see...

I wouldn't dare to imagine where this new episode may lead us.  I just have a new insight, once I travel the journey with you to get somewhere only we know, I'm gonna see the road that will finally take my restless soul home...

Hopefully...

Somewhere Only We Know

You see...

As the time goes by, many things happened, the gate of knowledge and awareness eventually opened, revealing the truest truth. Yet, so little that we shared after all...

This morning you sent me a song that brought everything to the present.  Moment of truth has come, time for  synchronizing finally arrived...

You need to know something...

I owe you one for the me I am now, I never got chance to thank you enough. You said that I've always managed to have a new side in me revealed for my own best deal with life...

I know I do, but I can't never do everything alone. Life always send me a soul to share their energy with me...

Beyond everything that we share, there should be a reason, the very good one. I was too blind to see then. As fear, anger and inferiority were there, darkened my vision...

You might not realize it, but you were standing there with a torch of light in your hand, when I faced my deepest darkest nightmare in life. The torch in your hand was keeping the last little candle flaming in my heart. That candle kept the woman in me alive...

We both are too smart to think that everything we've been through was only a coincidence, like a foolish beat of our heart. Now I see you more like a mirror, probably a twin soul. For I've search everywhere to find a soul that could match mine...

Like it or not, the connection has been set there. We might run from it, yet we could never hide. It is there for a reason, something we probably refused to believe...

But I've been searching and learning, our compatibility is almost 100 percent. You can fit in my brain as much as I can fit in yours. Our souls has recognized each other long before we fell in each others arms...

Only question is, would we open our heart for each other, beyond everything that measurable on earth.  So the spirits could carry on their duty to flame around and spread enlightenment into the tiny world we live in...

I believe your scientific mind will understand if I said it has everything to do with energy n frequency. Once you open your heart you will notice my soul energy within you. As much as I could access your frequency...

Then be prepared, tomorrow may be a brand new life. I am ready for Us to reconnect...