The Wounds That Can't Kill You...

Like it or not... Talking with someone about some of our history could simply bring some old wounds back into our mind and emotion... I thought I had mine healed... Yet I still shed tears while I was listening to I'm with You - Avril Lavigne last night...

"Oh why is everything so confusing
Maybe I'm just out of my mind
Yea yea yea

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I, I'm with you.."

It was something unavoidable, when we share life experience with people who happen to care about our life. And this could be a good healing therapy if only we would figure it out how...

It's just life... Sometimes we fall down and stumble,  other time we will surely rise up again and keep the life goes on. We just need to be aware of our invisible wounds. 

I know mostly we try so hard to avoid drama by covering the wound and burying it deeply in the darkest corner of our heart, so we can hardly feel it. Then no one will ever see our weakness, so we could just grow to forget it.

If only it can be that simple, especially when the people who cause the wound are those we keep dearly in our heart, or live so close in our life.  By time the wound will only get worse, more over when those who cause them are still living around us, without even having awareness they shed our tears when we do secretly hope they can be the reason of our smile...

Again it's just life... I often read this quotes... "Things that can't kill us will only make us grow stronger..."  They are good words to trust, but I would rather say... "The wound that can't kill us, will only make us grow stronger, when it's healed completely... "

Without healing, the strength that we gain could actually be a form of cave to hide, or wall that prevent any kind of pain to come around by put some distance from those who come too close to the convenience. This kind of strength can also form a numbness that work as painkiller...

Healing is a crucial part of learning about reality in life that sometime can be painful. We can not just hide the wound and take pain killer to forget it. In order to make the pain subside we need to look in and understand why. 

Once we can see the reason and understand why it should happen in our life, we would find a way to accept it. The acceptance will allow us to forgive the one who cause the pain. Then we will see the actions we need to take precaution order, so this kind of wound won't happen again.

In my case time has done its part in recovering me, but healing needs lots of better effort. It is mostly like fixing a broken heart, only this time I need the bravery to take the journey into me. Look in to my past and find the broken heart little girl who still there somewhere inside of me...

I need to heal her by making her see the wounds she's been through was there for a reason.  And those who cause it never knew the pain that took away her security of knowing she was loved unconditionally.  I need to embrace this little girl and love her along with the insecurity in her. I don't know exactly how to do it but I will find the way.  This time I will not surrender all to time...

I know this little piece of me had put me in so many doubts, as I am searching for true love. Sometimes I can feel and see love with clarity, other time it is like a virtual search which end up in fantasy...

Other mom can find this love in the eyes of their children, while it is not that easy for me. I could only guess that sometime the little girl in me might have the jealousy at the love I have for my own children. Moreover, sometimes I can feel very disturbed to be around them when I really need time to be with my own innermost being.

But knowing is only the gate to understanding, as accepting will be the next stage before taking any necessary actions. As the universe always send right people to be with me through all this, since the beginning of my life to the life I am in right now...

They come and go, make me full of smile and laughter. Sometime they teach me life lessons, another time just hurt me a little, as if life is trying to tell me pain is better than the numbness I often try to put around me...

It doesn't really matter how in some particular times we taste a failure in life, we may also just stumble and fall out from our path. The best thing of all would be the lesson we learn and how we struggle to stand up and move on...

As for me, I never ask for an easy ordinary life. For I know from the beginning of my life I was born to be extra ordinary. I can't walk my life in a crowd, I choose the rare path for my growth.  And the best thing I can ask for my life is a strength to carry on, clarity to see the light and tenderness of a warm heart to pull me up when life take me down...

So for those of You who are there, opening your heart for me. I can only thank God for sending you and let time play the magic in writing our story. As you have seen many sides of me. Yet willingly accept the me I am, who full of flaws, scars and insecurities... 

My vulnerable and fragile sides you have seen are the sign that I am a complete human. Now I learn that perfect life is about accepting the imperfections we face in our journey perfectly...

I wish, you would find something worth learning about life in me, as you start flowing your energy to me. I do appreciate all your effort to 'find' me. Friendship will always bring wonderful moments, hope it is everlasting for better or worse... 

I believe we met for something good...

Thanks for giving me the place to allow the honest me out. While Dreams and Expectation are against the Reality. All we have to hold on is Only Hope...

For the love that makes the heart singing...
For the smile that makes the days gleaming...
For the honesty that makes the soul shining...


Hopefully...


Bunch of Love,


ArifaH

Today I Feel So Very TINY...

Have you ever seen your being, compere to the whole UNIVERSE...???
Today I saw some posts that make me think of this fact...

And I automatically told my children, this is Our Beloved Earth, look so tiny among The Sun, Jupiter and Saturn... I let them learn how this kind of picture is always mesmerizing me...The Sun does Looks So BIG here, on my children eyes...

But Wait... Is The Sun really that big...??? Unfortunately NO...

As a matter of fact, Our Sun is one of The Tiny Star in The Universe... So, thanks to Uncle Google... I manage to find one amazing picture about the mass and size of Earth compared with other bigger planets and The Sun... And also the mass and size of The Sun compared to other stars like Sirius, Pollux and VY Canis Majoris...

They studied this picture and downloaded it... I hope this is something they will never forget in their life... One important lesson about life... If we start to feel so big, we definitely need to remember how tiny we actually are... 

Also when thing in our life moves like roller coaster, even seems like turning upside down, we need to remember something bigger than Us is playing a complex Scenario in the universe. 

If this Power can make all the planets, stars and galaxies moves in order, so it will be a very tiny favor for this Power to allow all the scramble pieces of jigsaw in our life falling in all over again in better order. 

That is the next post I saw this afternoon, that makes me think, what are these about..??
As if the universe try to tell me something...

Not so long after I thought about feeling so tiny, I saw this post,
talk about the best medicine for Human is LOVE... 

Just remember the direction, Should be GIVEN not just TAKEN... 
And the condition should be UNCONDITIONALLY....

I hope these pictures I share today, can show you what I have just seen today... 
No matter how tiny we are in this universe... LOVE will Keep Us ALIVE... 

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

Sexy Things We Need to Invite Readers to Our Blogs..

I must say Blogspot is quite a nice place to blog. But so far I write in many sites too, I have four blogs around the net, including one here. Two of them in Bahasa Indonesia my own language. I wish to have more feedback from readers if I write in English so my ability in English Literacy can improve...

There are some things that writers need to make their blogs popular. I am writing this for those who really want to share their words because they really want to tell the world about something buzzing in their minds. Do not hesitate..!! Just let the words flow from the fresh spring inside the heart, through mind and make your fingers dance...

I start writing four years ago, two years in English. From my experience I can tell how writer get reader online. So these are my subjective opinion :

1. Consistency in writing and posting the note/blog.

Writing as also speaking skill is something we can only learn by doing. The more we read, the more we have things to think of. And speaking in the form of writing is the same as producing something from the inside of our being. The more we write the better we construct the words and flow it our own way.

2. Preferences in specific idea.

People blog for many reason, but writer need to pick some themes they really like to write about. Writing on something we like would bring passion in our words. If we write from the heart, they usually read us with the heart. The heart connection will silently build a writer-reader bond.

3. Honesty.

The best thing of saying things from the heart is we cant tell a lie. Not like writing with the mind, our mind tend to easily distracted with our own surrounding and reduce the honesty in what we say. Most of all never let your mind telling your heart what to feel and say it out loud in a blog.

4. Blog title.

Picking the eye catching title is an art. It should describe our writing in an intriguing short sentence. And to invite visitors from The Net Searching Machine, you need to pick popular easy reading bite of sentence to catch attention.

5. Brain/heart catching.

The eye catching title should be followed by a brain or heart catching words to read. It can be in the form of news, story, poems and soon. The best way to catch brain and heart, is to produce something genuine and authentic from our brain and heart. Collaboration between our brain and heart will let our soul spill in the writing.

Somehow from the thumbs I collect, I know many are reading my notes, but only few of them left respond. I conclude, readers like to read my blog, but rarely have feedback on that. It doesn't matter because the point of writing is sharing idea. No matter if the reader agree with us or not.

I usually get more comment when I wrote about my experience as human. Moments of surviving, happiness, sadness, confusing time, hard time like when we got flood disaster, also when I wrote something in popular interest because it is entertaining.

I believe Being Popular is a side effect of our contribution in bringing something to the universe, for better or worse...Just like in the school time. We can either be the brightest brain or the wicked rebel to get attention. Both will do to be popular.

It is something of our choice. The energy we share is the one will return to Us. It can be negative or positive. Either one, it is our call to make. What I believe, if we do something good for the universe, even a small stuff like posting picture/poems/words that make people smile. The universe will note, smile back and return the smile we share in the most surprising way...

Taste The Rainbow

Seduce, tease, thrill and storm the mind,
You may get one ticket to my soul... 

Caress, amuse and melt the soul,
You may get in touch with my heart... 

Find, hold and shelter the heart.
You may get lucky enough to taste the rainbow...

The First Secret to Happiness

Almost two years ago I wrote :

"Love is the energy that rule the Whole Universe.. Coming from The Source, Our Mighty Creator.. Manifest in Life through every single living form of His Creation..."


Yet finding love is not an easy journey.. Especially when we start with loving the one within Us.. Only those who knows how to love themselves unconditionally will be able to love others as they are and be really happy...

So, today I can say...

When I took the journey to find love, I saw me...
When I step closer within, I captured the divine light inside...
When I embrace the light, I felt the love...
When I surrender in the wings of love, I fell in love with me...
When I accept the me I am, I simply found the power of love in me...


And finally I know, that's where my truest happiness rest...

The Bravery to be Just ME

All I need is the bravery to be just me... Sounds so simple, but sometimes the fear to make mistake or creating wrong image of ourselves can distract us from our own unique path.

Too much fear about right or wrong can kill our creativity and reduce our ability to think critically. Our imagination and innovation to learn, then produce new things must start with our bravery to be just human, who's born to learn from our own history.

If only we can stop worrying about being right, we will learn that the best part about being human is just to be authentic, genuine, original and honest...

As sure as the sun rises every morning, we shall make mistakes in life, and the best thing would be in knowing that it is ok to be wrong...

Because that's the best way human learn to find the right path. Without making mistakes, actually we should start doubting...

Do we really ever learn..???

The bravery to be just me, allow me to find the right path by learning from my wrong turns in life. As life is roller coaster ride, we learn from all the down path. So then we can make the best out of us on our way up...

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

Learning How to Learn and Community Based Education

Written on Friday, June 14, 2013

Today I want to blog like everybody else, writing about my life and the world I live in. Talking about my mental blocked mind. As I often mention on my blog, I am a stay at home mommy of 4 kids. It is always awkward to experience the writer blocks when i actually have to write something. And tonight I need to make presentation for a dialogue on Saturday. Less than 36 hours from now.

The most difficult part would be because I have to cut my 2 hours slides into 20 minutes speech, for this is going to be a discussion forum, not a workshop or a talkshow. Something I never did in the past. And the most thrilling fact, I am going to share tables with some amazing people. It is not very easy to come up with something essential in a very short moment of presentation.

But thanks for the internet, my chat with some friends have become a way to rehearse what I really need to say about the whole idea in a brief description. The topic would be about Home Base Learning and Community Base Education, where family should be the smallest unit for people to start learning how to learn. Most of Us in this forum would be the kind of people who are disappointed by the education system in our country. Where after a too long study time and loads of resources to invest, the generations we harvest still a bunch of useless for community greenhorns. Something must be terribly wrong in the education process.

And great thing about social media, just this afternoon I saw this table on one of my Facebook friends post. This one made by Dr. John Moravec...

I believe, this is what we think when we suggest the family based learning and the community base education. There will hardly be no teaching method, all about learning equally. The learning process will be as unique as the people in it, which are connected base on each specification, talent and skill. Where we all keep sustaining the need to share, and the education terminology in Web 3.0, should be understood that all and everyone in one community are included..

The biggest challenge in Web 3.0 maybe the lack of ability to think out of the box, the absence of innovation and imagination and the minimum creativity to generate content or make product to share. While the most important part in Web 3.0 is believing that the learning process is something unlimited. It takes time from the day we are born to the day we take our last breath. It is not an obligation what so ever.  It is totally a NEED to be fulfilled by every single one of us to have something new to learn every day.

We NEED to learn anywhere and anytime, from anybody we meet in our daily activity. Moreover we need to learn how to think globally and take local action, based on our own uniqueness elaborate with local wisdom to produce masterpiece from all the natural resources we have around us. After that we need to create solid network with all people to collaborate an improvement and generate massive change in our society towards the better tomorrow.

The next question will be, Do we have the eagerness to educate ourselves..??? Moreover, Do we have the curiosity to explore the universe around us…??? Including the life we live on, the path we are walking and the place we fill in this universal jigsaw puzzle…???

Since now a day, the bitter fact for us is not only the schools which officially provide education are still in Web 1.0, unfortunately most of all our education user and product are still there. After graduate and got a job no more learning, they simply stop growing. They live like a robot in their own comfort zone. Never look out what kind of problem the society is in, as if all social illness is not any of their concern.

 I consider myself a Web 3.0 kind of parent , yet we send our kids  to A Web 1.0 kind of School. Because I believe they have mission to bring the Web 3.0 kind of learning to their school, by believing schooling is not only about having a place to get knowledge but more of the place to share and give knowledge...

My friend thinks the term robot that use negatively above is not appropriate anymore, the blue brain that build the newest droids, make the robot work and analyze better than most human. She gives me this link  : http://www.ted.com/talks/andrew_mcafee_what_will_future_jobs_look_like.html and say And says.. “We prefer to have people connection, we do love humanity but when human can't compete with the machine. We have no time for ego pampering..” Dang…!!! So true, robot work in better manner and order, they never know about the ego combine with closed mind and wide open mouth...

So then there should be something to develop in human to compete the blue brain. I am thinking of Mr Spock and Data in Startrek TV serials, they totally beat all the negativity in human as a potential starship crew.  The question would be, What do we need in education to produce people like Captain Kirk...???

If you watch the Startrek movie Into Darkness, there's a significant difference between human and the droid methods of observing, thinking, networking and deciding, before they take any serious action.

There are some values that humanity has, like friendship for not leaving any one behind. There’s also gut instinct and hunch to do what they think is right because they put much love in the life they live on, including on their job. Once we put love in everything we do for life, there will be much more to think in every breath we take, as there is a lot more to do in every step we make... 

As we go further, we fly higher...

I believe that's what the droids can’t do.  Innovation, imagination, and reaching the highest dream are the best of humanity. I believe no droids can replace the way we share about everything we learn and earn in life.  No droids could ever flow words in writing the way I do. Because as a writer I do my writing with love. Coming from the necessity that’s built based on my concern about the life and society...

We share what we have based on our unique specification, experience, bbackground, and history. So I would say, finding our own passion and nurture it with love will give us the unbeatable skill and talent to create and generate masterpiece in our life.

Let us go back to our nature to nurture the life in us. So we can find the path that will lead us to our own authentic and genuine masterpiece for humanity. The very reason we are created on earth...

Heaven Help Those Who Help Themselves…

Stolen from Daniel Nielsen FB timeline..

Writing is My Meditation Temple..

Writing is my meditation temple, writing is my own hypnotherapy session and my own philosophy lesson to learn...

Sometimes my head and my heart makes my existence a very noisy place to be... They are constantly debating about my being... Along with my morality which likes to give never ending comments to all my actions... Added with my passionate dream which tends to be in conflict with my reality... Not to mention my need on constant supply of something new and my adventurous self which always wait for endorphin and adrenaline supplement as daily in take..

I break down all of those noises that circling around me in chewable thoughts by writing them... Sometimes the misty cloud is wondering around the place where people can comprehend.. Another time, it is just flying so high or diving so deep that can not easily be reached even by my own understanding... I don't think to write, I simply flow the thoughts out... And use my mind later while I do the editing... Often, I frown while trying to understand my own written words...

I write in order to learn about me and the life I live in...

Since 2009, I notice that what I thought make people think and willingly throw they thoughts at me. Their feedback usually bring me to totally new understanding. That is the best thing about blogging.

I write to flow my words from the heart, so they can be read by the heart..
I write with love in order to share love, for writing is a love of my life..

Words are all I have to get connected with the universe..
So Thank You for Reading me, It means a lot...

Bunch of Love,

Rainbow