How Would I...???

Let's just see how time tends to make me see, 
by then we will see all the complexions 
I ever have in my life were there for a reason

The reason that will broaden my understanding
about the life that I'm living, 
more specific about the single life 
that live inside of me
so I really see where I'm heading

All I can do now is accepting with brand new understanding
that it's better for me to swim and float with the tide 
not against it, nor fighting it
and this time I will do my best 
not to run from it

Just one huge question hanging in my thoughts...

Could I buy my soul back from the devils when I really don't know how..???
Especially when I feel too weak to fight alone and too tired to fly solo above the storm...


But I do believe Heaven is a place on earth, as well as the hell is, 
As I also believe that devils are part of our being, as well as the angels are...

Now I see... 

How being a devilish angel who happen to live on earth
without her wing can be so confusing 
for the woman in me...

Dear God,
Allow me to surrender
my fragile heart...

So I will feel the comfort
in The Wing of Your Love
sheltering my innermost soul...
Hopefully...

Note for A Wounded Soul

(Repost - thank you, for the very soul that has wrote me this..)

hush my heartthrob you stir to much in your sleep

clutching a pillow i have christened me

waking to a dryness in your throat

an emptiness in your heart

in search of a pain you have come to call comfort

hush my sweet heart

let your mind guide your heart

let your soul be your light

let your trust be your friend

a thousand ways i search to find the words

a million years i would sell to be yours

but life does not allow my feelings to touch your needs
and the distance does not allow the warmth of your touch

lighten the clouds around my heart

i tried to free my soul

i tried to seal my heart

i even lied to me

and probably to you as well

you see my mind understands reality
my heart understands dreams 

Bunch of Love,

Arifah H.

T E A R S

Sometime we just can't turn sadness into sweat anymore.. 
Sometime we just can't have enough energy to turn sorrow into rage.. 
Maybe at this kind of time all we need just some tears to shedand solitude to embracethe unexpected ..

As once I ever wrote :

When I Have Tears...

I just have to remember.. 
Tears is the best thing to wash my soul,
not here to hurt me, more to help me ease my pain...
Because...
The universe won't make me cry, unless there is an important lesson in life I need to learn,which worth those tears...
Heaven knows I am a fighter,pain will never stop me from doing what I must,and tears only come to soften my heart, not to weaken my inner strength...
I never doubt...One day when the time come,I will be glad telling the story,that once upon the time,I ever have those tears...

My Promises and Choices in Life...

I have promised to live my life with full capacity,
that's why I choose to dedicate this life
to love the life with full intensity...

So I will always try to make
the days I live in really worth living...

And this year I make new promises that 2013 will full of :
Win-win solutions...
Best Agreement...
Negotiations...
and Achievements...

That will make me really happy
as a woman, mom
and the citizen of universe...

Since life is so full of ups and downs, I urge myself to decide how I want to handle the sadness and sorrow in my life.. As I switch the impact of all pain I feel, from the one that hurts me to the one that change me to be better not bitter. Cause the wound that couldn't kill me, will definitely make me grow stronger, wiser and flexible if I allow it to heal completely...

I'm no longer waiting for the storm to pass, in the past few years the life let me learned an important lesson about dancing in the rain till the sun shine again.

As in the storm of my life,
I choose neither to be the boat nor storm...

I prefer to be the ocean
sometime with the pretty rainbow
beyond the horizon...

For the brand new day will always come
with the new rainbow of life
and better tomorrow does exist
if we try hard enough...

 

 

Can Life Really be Unfair...???

Today actually I wanted to talk about, 
how life can be so unfair…
How one can always live 
by sucking energy from others…

But on the second thoughts,
Couldn't it be just the way life shows fairness…
For those who were born with strength in their blood
They should live as though there should never be 
some days to feel tired or loosing grip of strength...

No matter how much the ship needs to dock, 
the storm of life keep dragging it out 
to the place where firm and solid ability 
for sailing above the water needed...

There's a reason why God always unite the strong with the weaker
It is always about allowing the weaker to learn of their strength 
But also it is about letting the strong to understand their weakness 
As both are equipped in every single one of us to embrace and accept…

Just like the sun which rises every morning needs time to set
Sometime one who were born to shine like the sun need time to rest
And learn to live as the moon which absorbs sunlight only to reflect it...

As human we can always feel tired 
It is completely normal...

And at the time like this, 
I wish to use what i have 
to get what i need...

No restraining nor regretting, 
Just to be me that I need to be
at this very moment in time...

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

Friendship... for a reason, a season or a lifetime..???

I always say, Friendship is a lifetime contract for me. 

Some people do say, they see a long last friend in me. 

Yet I still lost some people who occupy major space in my heart.

That's just some moments in our life time, we can only make the best out of what we have by cherishing every people who come into our lives and leave a trace in our heart. No matter what come out in the end, my friendship with people all over the globe allow me to learn a lot more about life where I am living. 

Reading Deepak Chopra or Dr Seuss quotes about being universal piece of jigsaw puzzle and our truer existence. I found that we do need to climb a much higher trees to ascend in life. So we can see how our path can be so different, although we might share the same start together. But in the end as human, we might be directed to the same final destination, as we search the truest truth of our being.

Learning about the life journey, I must agree with Deepak Chopra and Dr. Seuss that no one could be any youer than you and we hold our own piece of puzzle to fit in this universal jigsaw. 

Although the friendship may only there for a season or a reason. The trace the friendships leave in my heart, will affect me for a lifetime. And I will make the best out of them by saving only the good moment we share.

Thank you for the friendship. Hope we can always be in touch for a lifetime...


Bunch of Love,

Rainbow

About Choices...

When People try to go against our choices in life, 
do not get them wrong,
They might actually be in a very insecure mode 
with their own choices in life...

Unfortunately instead of lifting other's hearts up 
they choose to bring them down, 
the choice that will never bring them 
anywhere near their own inner peace...

Yet, we always have a choice to take 
whatever they say to make us bitter or better...

Bunch of Love,
ArifaH