For All The Women in The World...

Do you realize that we all are created beautifully and it is our destiny to be so Lovely... We all deserve to love and be loved...

Once upon a time my marriage feels like hell when I realize I have never got the Love I deserve... And I was so angry with my family.. Because I've been loving them with all my life.. I gave my youth to them but then I felt they refuse to give me the love that I need...

But then I realized something... I failed to feel the Love, it is not only their fault... It is mine too..

Because somehow, I failed to show them how I want to be loved... I failed to make them learn and understand how I need to be loved...

So I look in deep within me... And find out what I really want and need in this life... Then I understand what my family should do to give me what I want and need... So I can start to make them see, as I see what is important for me... What I want and need to be exist  in my life... Also what kind of life that I really dream of, not only as a mom and wife... But mostly as one complete woman..

That's the journey of finding and to be found...That's how I understand... We will make all people love Us by doing only one thing... Be ourselves and love us the way we are...

Notice our strength and admit our weakness and limits.. We should use the strength to make us grow more beautiful.. Then we can use our weakness to learn how to live the life in better way... Then we can measure our limits and start to make a breakthrough.. So no more limits.. We are on our way to the top of the world, go beyond our horizon...



No body is Perfect... But every single one of Us always want Perfection… Let's help Ourselves by realizing, that all we could do to be perfect is dealing with our imperfection, perfectly…

How Feminine and Masculine Power are United in Sex...

I should say thank you to those who shared dating experience with me and talked about their relation in real life. Their experiences strengthen my understanding, that sex need more feelings than just lust, as relationship need to go a bit further before touching the real sex ground. I'm thinking of one topic that I haven't got chance to discuss it out loud, over and over,  to post here in my blog. But a forum discussion on sex and spirituality had brought this out immaturely a few months ago…

I extremely believe that God Must Be Sexy because He create one beautiful way to keep human race from extinction. As Male and Female created with sexuality power in their Feminine and Masculine default factory setting to  perform reproduction duty on earth.

Feminine and Masculine power are united in sex, which is originally created with main action to produce children. But then again The God must be Sexy to allow Us having very sexy feeling in performing that duty. They also come in a very thrilling and beautiful direction order. Then, somehow human mind create so many additional guiding book on this assignment.

Until today human found a way to enjoy that sexy task without producing human baby with a tool called contraception. This is a big breakthrough in human science for human race which then allowed sex to become another biological need just like air, water and food in human life. 

Suddenly we no longer need family to have sex, more over nowadays we can even have sex without real relationship between male and female. We don’t need to be husband and wife to have sex like in the old days, we don’t even have to be lovers or have the feeling of love to have sexual relation. 

Suddenly my vocabulary notice new funny terms like friends with benefit, fuck buddy and leghumper! What a big breakthrough for my traditional way of thinking as an eastern woman. And from what Uncle Google provide for my understanding this breakthrough is responsible in what so called a sexual chaos in the world.

I would think this fact cause a downfall in many marriage life, because somehow in this jet era there are still people who has old way of thinking even in their legal commitment about healthy sexual relation. They do have every right to perform all the activity in a sex relation provided by the vow of marriage but never really use it at the most.  

So too bad the marriage then fail in giving the male or the female in it a healthy sex relation. That definitely can create an unbalance life for the married couples. And as the balance grow out of control they start to find what they need in other place. The masculine and feminine power start to get lost in fulfilling their basic need for healthy sex relation.

Every mature male and female deserve to have the healthy sexual relation. The level of it is measured by how close those two power are attached to each other. We can always touch the person we have sex with physically but it requires more attachment to really touch the spirit, so body and soul can be blended in sexual interaction.

As a traditional woman, I believe one of the most important ingredient of body and soul connection in sex is love. As sure as the sun need to rise every morning, we do need love to create a happy family. But since now we can have sex without family, then it is possible for any of us to have sex without love, simply just to fill our biological need.

Then my questions out of this situation are :
- Will that sexual relation quench all the thirst and hunger in every single masculine and feminine power who experience this action…???
- Or in the other hand this sexual exploration without love tend to leave a void in human balance even more…???

I'm an overly romantic female who is addicted to love. I wish I can assure me that sex is a perfect act of love, come only to bring more closeness when two people in love, as their souls become one.

I can't imagine having sex without being in love with the very person I am involved in sexual relation with. Like I would rather not eat without appetite. I just wish to live this life at the most with full capacity, as I wish to love with full intensity ...

Like Bon Jovi said :

“It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive

My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks…”

Do you know...???

Till the day I take my last breath,
this smile will always want to be with you..

Now...

Would you please step closer,
so my restlessness could go away..

Will you stay a little bit longer,
so this weariness would subside..

Could you hold my hands for a while,
so the smile will kiss away my tears,
and the wound felt less painful..

Then the wings of hope will spread and start flying
as the winning song is soaring in the air
then the serenity will take over the soul
and float in the real peace of mind...

When all become one in silence
as the memories of yesterday are merged
and create the dream of better tomorrow…

 

 

A Never Ending Journey of Learning...

Every time I thought I have learned so much..

do you know what I got...???

Again, I realized on...
how little that I have known
how could there still so many much more that I don't understand
how I need loads more of further learning....

Then I understand that even until the day I die
I must believe...

I am born to learn
that my path of living in life
is a never ending journey of learning..





“The only true wisdom is in knowing you know nothing.”
  ~Socrates

My Destiny is to Fly...

My heart is the sky,
Can feel love as wide as the horizon...

My heart is the sea,
Can save love as deep as the ocean...

I'm The Eagle,
My Destiny is to Fly...

I'm The Dolphin,

If I can't Swim The Blue Ocean
Should I believe I am Alive...

Wish the past give Us wisdom
to step on better future..

Wish the present give Us courage
to reach the highest dream..

Wish the future provide Us with the clue
to make the dreams come true..

Everyone are Equipped with Their Own Devils

I've been through hell, dealing with the devil and dying inside,
but then I managed to really stand up
after I crawled my way back alive…

That's how I believe I have the job to find
that heaven must be a place on earth
as the way I saw hell is…

Sometime We are all just put in the wrong place..
doing the wrong things, at the wrong moment for the wrong reason...

As I am but I have the need to reverse that...

Everyone are equipped with their own devils to deal with,
Sometime we need to be crashed, scattered and torn apart,
So we can be integrated as we try to rebuild...
Sometime we just feel so neglected and ignored ,
When our beauty, knowledge, passion, talent and energy are wasted
This definitely can cause a brain damaged and a soul bruised...

There we will really need a shortcut,
Maybe like a Frog Prince..?
Who can give a brand new life over single kiss..

But The Universe is always a fair place,
When people who live next to us can't hardly be a helping heart..

The Universe will send the right people for doing the right thing at the right moment
They would help us at any situation we are in a very surprising way..

All we have to do is believing that even in a storm we will find some light..

"'Knowing You're beside me... I am all right..."
~ Looking through the eyes of love - Nikka Costa

Sexy and Heaven...

"Sexy = Hot.. Heejab = Beautiful..
That's why hell is hot and heaven is beautiful.."

I read that somewhere.. Over and over... And dis agree...

For me... Sexy is not always about showing skin..

The way we smile,
and the look in our eyes..

The way we think,
and the way we hold our head high..

Can be sexy..

Now I realize
Sexy is a blessed feeling
and nothing dirty about that..

Life is so full of very creative actions
Being sexy is one of them..

If we would manage to think
heaven can be a place on earth

We should start realizing
we won't make that happen
unless we can have heaven
inside our mind, heart and soul..

You know what...
Being sexy can feel like heaven..