Déjà vu

(Déjà vu is  the feeling of having "already lived through" something.
It is the phenomenon of having the strong sensation from an event  that currently being experienced, has already been happened in the past...)

It was a normal saturday morning until I decided to make a contact with you. A duty to create a list of people who can share their experience as guest teacher in my school urged me to reach out for some special friends, you were included. Despite the history that has disconnected us few years back, I still strongly believe, you will have something interesting to share with my students.

Yet, out of the blue You suddenly sent me a song, "Somewhere Only We Know". The song flew me to a place I never know exist, yet it has always been there. Then the chaos began as I listened to every words the song told me..

I walked across an empty land,
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand,
I felt the earth beneath my feet,
Sat by the river and it made me complete...

Somehow, these words reminds me of the long journey I've been walking, since the first time we met, till the day we stopped  seeing each other, I wasn't sure why we faded. It was like you simply going on with your life, while I moved on with my own journey, running away from everything that was gone wrong, finding a place I could call home that would make me feel comfortably loved...

Oh simple thing where have you gone...?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on,
So tell me when you're gonna let me in,
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin...
I came across a fallen tree,
I felt the branches of it looking at me,
Is this the place we used to love...?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of...?

Owh dear... It's really painful to hear these words. I never knew that you could ever miss us and feel that lost. Just the way I did before I walked the journey to find what is really matter in my life, as i found how True Love really meant for me. I didn't plan to leave you in such emptiness. We could have walked this road together, if only I wasn't too blind to see...

And if you have a minute why don't we go,
Talk about it somewhere only we know...?
This could be the end of everything,
So why don't we go,
Somewhere only we know...?

Only two weeks ago, I went on a soul journey to Solo, Magelang and Ngawi. I never thought that in that journey a question about twin soul could emerged. As I had already accept that a twin soul is something we could build, not a connection that's been setting up by the universe since the day we were born. But a meeting with a long lost soul showed me that I wasn't home yet. My soul is still so restless, I still need a place to call home...

Like playing a soundtrack of my own Déjà vu episodes, I've been listening to the two song you've sent me over and over, as I am collecting every pieces of puzzle we ever left behind us...

You see...

I wouldn't dare to imagine where this new episode may lead us.  I just have a new insight, once I travel the journey with you to get somewhere only we know, I'm gonna see the road that will finally take my restless soul home...

Hopefully...