Who wants to live forever?
There's no chance for us,
It's all decided for us,
This world has only one sweet moment
set aside for us
Who wants to live forever,
Who dares to love forever,
Who dare who dare,
Who wants to live forever,
When love must die
So touch my tears with your lips,
Touch my world with your fingertips,
And we can have forever,
And we can have forever,
Forever is our today...
~ Queen
I was chatting with a friend this week, when this subject kicking in. I said, I plan to live until 120 and enjoy every moments of it.". He replied with a question "Why 120..??" And I tell him, hat was just a number I borrowed from my American friend in another site, a very alive lady in my friend list. She was 65 when I add her. Then my friend sadly said he doesn't want a too long life span, because He could not bare watching everyone He loved die.
Being left by people we love is a great sadness, I learn about that when my mother passed away. She was only 43 years old, while I was 21. I learned about the biggest lost in my life at that age, with a lot of stress hanging because My Dad didn't cope well with that situation.I have to stand as a trustworthy adult for my little brother and sister, telling them not to be sad and afraid. Most difficult thing to do, because at that time my own heart was badly broken and I was so scare myself. But that was when I learn about my real strength, at that moment I didn't have other choice than being strong, for my own good and my siblings, who were only 18 and 15 years old.
My life had never been easy, my lesson of being strong has start the moment I learned my mom had cancer, and the side effect of the therapy she took was a dilated heart which could only work 45% from normal and possibly arrest at any moment (She got it arrested twice in 4 years, before finally took her life away). She was a very strong will medical doctor, with her condition she still worked as an ER doctor which required a lot of worked and a very strong nerve. That was Strength.
Her way of life prevented me from crying to see her pain. I believe I must not show worry face, I had to let her knew everything going to be alright even if she must take off any moment. Because all she care about was Us, her children. She didn't care about her illness nor the pain. So I could only be there, holding her hands going through her worst moment in the disease story and being strong for her.
Then when the time finally took her, I could only think that was the best for her. She had done with her pain and sickness, and she had finished her burden to take care of us her children with her impeccable strength. It was an awful pain for any of her children, the biggest lost in our life.
But in time of learning to be strong I realized. My mom was just leaving in body form, her spirit and love stayed in our thoughts, feelings and memories forever. She is still very much alive in me. Death is just another side of life and the eternal love will never be separated from us even by death.
We may have lost so many people in life already. Best friends from childhood, our family's member, some true love of our life and so on. We may refuse to stand the lost, as if we would rather join with them. The exact feeling we may feel when our Moms were gone forever and we miss her with every beat of our heart until today.
The show must go on. We lost some people in our life but every where we go from day to day, we may meet new people. The new people who comes will never replace anyone who left, but their presence will enriched our life with their own unique way of bringing the light back to us after our big storm caused by loosing people we love so much.
The new feelings we share worth the life. While our love for the those who left is still ours to keep. The love should make us smile over the great memories of the happiest moment we spent with them. By then we can no longer weep for the sadness in loosing them, because all we have in ourselves is being very grateful they were once coloring our time line with beautiful rainbow.
Even if in some moments we feel like crying when the memories with them flashing in our mind, that will be the sweet tears. Just smile when we feel the tears rolling down our face. Because the sweet tears are not coming to weaken our strength. They are there to soften our heart and soul.
Let the love we feel for the people who has gone forever do nothing but make us smile in gratitude because they will live forever in Us.
There's no chance for us,
It's all decided for us,
This world has only one sweet moment
set aside for us
Who wants to live forever,
Who dares to love forever,
Who dare who dare,
Who wants to live forever,
When love must die
So touch my tears with your lips,
Touch my world with your fingertips,
And we can have forever,
And we can have forever,
Forever is our today...
~ Queen
I was chatting with a friend this week, when this subject kicking in. I said, I plan to live until 120 and enjoy every moments of it.". He replied with a question "Why 120..??" And I tell him, hat was just a number I borrowed from my American friend in another site, a very alive lady in my friend list. She was 65 when I add her. Then my friend sadly said he doesn't want a too long life span, because He could not bare watching everyone He loved die.
Being left by people we love is a great sadness, I learn about that when my mother passed away. She was only 43 years old, while I was 21. I learned about the biggest lost in my life at that age, with a lot of stress hanging because My Dad didn't cope well with that situation.I have to stand as a trustworthy adult for my little brother and sister, telling them not to be sad and afraid. Most difficult thing to do, because at that time my own heart was badly broken and I was so scare myself. But that was when I learn about my real strength, at that moment I didn't have other choice than being strong, for my own good and my siblings, who were only 18 and 15 years old.
My life had never been easy, my lesson of being strong has start the moment I learned my mom had cancer, and the side effect of the therapy she took was a dilated heart which could only work 45% from normal and possibly arrest at any moment (She got it arrested twice in 4 years, before finally took her life away). She was a very strong will medical doctor, with her condition she still worked as an ER doctor which required a lot of worked and a very strong nerve. That was Strength.
Her way of life prevented me from crying to see her pain. I believe I must not show worry face, I had to let her knew everything going to be alright even if she must take off any moment. Because all she care about was Us, her children. She didn't care about her illness nor the pain. So I could only be there, holding her hands going through her worst moment in the disease story and being strong for her.
Then when the time finally took her, I could only think that was the best for her. She had done with her pain and sickness, and she had finished her burden to take care of us her children with her impeccable strength. It was an awful pain for any of her children, the biggest lost in our life.
But in time of learning to be strong I realized. My mom was just leaving in body form, her spirit and love stayed in our thoughts, feelings and memories forever. She is still very much alive in me. Death is just another side of life and the eternal love will never be separated from us even by death.
We may have lost so many people in life already. Best friends from childhood, our family's member, some true love of our life and so on. We may refuse to stand the lost, as if we would rather join with them. The exact feeling we may feel when our Moms were gone forever and we miss her with every beat of our heart until today.
The show must go on. We lost some people in our life but every where we go from day to day, we may meet new people. The new people who comes will never replace anyone who left, but their presence will enriched our life with their own unique way of bringing the light back to us after our big storm caused by loosing people we love so much.
The new feelings we share worth the life. While our love for the those who left is still ours to keep. The love should make us smile over the great memories of the happiest moment we spent with them. By then we can no longer weep for the sadness in loosing them, because all we have in ourselves is being very grateful they were once coloring our time line with beautiful rainbow.
Even if in some moments we feel like crying when the memories with them flashing in our mind, that will be the sweet tears. Just smile when we feel the tears rolling down our face. Because the sweet tears are not coming to weaken our strength. They are there to soften our heart and soul.
Let the love we feel for the people who has gone forever do nothing but make us smile in gratitude because they will live forever in Us.
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