I Am Divergent

"I don't want to be just one thing. I want to be brave and selfless, and smart, and kind, and honest..."
~ Four - Divergent


I'm in LOVE... Wow... !!!!
For the first time in forever I wish to be 10 years younger...
Silly... Hahahaha...

It's been a long time since I watched a movie that moved me from head to heel, and around. I thought it was just because of the totally cool male cast - Four, which gave the effect of watching Tom Cruise for the first time in Top Gun, that got stronger after I watched Interview with The Vampire, A Few Good Men and Mission : Impossible (all series).

Well, yes I'm a fan of Tom Cruise, yet that didn't make me surf the net for wallpapers, facebook fanpage, twitter account and websites for Divergent and Four, like today. I search wiki and youtube for more story and scenes. I even put Four's coolest image I found online in my phone as a wallpaper. 

He has A deadly stunned and definitely melted look
in his eyes, don't you think...????

And the last, I order two books of the trilogy, Divergent and Insurgent online after I read the resumes in wikipedia, too bad I can't found Allegiant, it is not translated yet. I know, I would love to find and read the original copies, but usually the translated books which were printed here is way lot cheaper than the original verse.

I guess, I didn't feel this way for The Hunger Games, although I had read the trilogy before I did watched the movie. Yup, sounds like this time I got struck by temporal insanity. But I decide to go with the flow, it felt good anyway.

At least now I know, there's a word for people like me.
I am Divergent... hahahaha...



Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

PS :
Little something for you,
who hasn't got a chance to watch divergent,My Favorite Scene...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wF5DXvApbuU

Inner Peace for The Neurotic Mother...

On my yoga instructor wall post I read :

"What are people's problems?"
They can be reduced to one thing: the mother, because the mother was not able of giving a spiritual womb. Psychologically she was neurotic, spiritually she was empty, so there was no spiritual food for the child, no nourishment. (...) The mother was not centered; how can the child be centered? The child is simply a continuation, a continuity of the mother's being. If one sees all the implications of it, fewer people will decide to become fathers and mothers. And it would be a better world if fewer people decided to be mothers and fathers. It would be less crowded, less neurotic, less pathological, less crazy. ~The Book of Children - Osho

(This post definitely tickled my consciousness, that make me write this blog..)

I do agree that every mother needs to have an inner strength to pass on their children from the very day they enter her womb till the day she begins to nurture their body, mind, heart n soul till they are off from her house.

But who's to blame if a mother is not integrated with her own inner being...???

I guess this is where a husband/father of the children will come in handy. Raising children definitely a kind of 'It takes TWO to Tango' action. Some people even said it takes a village to raise a child. Nurture a mother heart and soul is a must, if she is not in peace with her inner being.

So, if you're a mother and consciously realize that you're not in peace with the life inside your being to access your inner strength.

Do yourself a favor :
» Spare yourself a moment of silence
» Pack your body, mind, heart and soul up in one place
» Get them aligned with your inner spirit
» Let each one of them speak and listen carefully to all those voices of what they really want and need
» Do not argue or debate any of them, hear their reason no matter how absurd they seem, they are YOU
» Let your inner spirit access The Source in a prayer, with all those voices, visualize a peaceful way out, where a win win solution occur, let the heart be your guide here
» Once you can see the visualization of a peaceful way out, let your mind work on every possible passages to create an action plan, so you can live in peace with yourself
» Only then you can maintain a healthy connection with all people around you

Remember :
» The win-win solution and the best agreement are only there in the menu, if you can manage a healthy negotiation with any people around you
» Use your inner spirit to get in touch with other people spirit, to do so a peaceful clarity inside is a must
» You have an equal right with any people around you to live in a peaceful life

You may not be agree with what I believe. But if you can follow my idea, these tips might be useful to do in your meditating session. I use this to handle my own anger, especially when I face one of my temper tantrum stage.

Welcome a new way of life,
Happy Reborn

 




















Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

Finding Our Own Stream ...

“I have been and still am a seeker, but I have ceased to question stars and books; I have begun to listen to the teaching my blood whispers to me.” ~ Hermann Hesse

It is really good to understand that life is always about, finding our own stream. Following the way we need to flow is always the best way to live rather than going with others...

Yet... Every river will end at the sea shore and become one in the same ocean. Although we might not go through the same river, but our beginning and our end most likely have a oneness within. As clear as the silver lining light in the sky that show us, we are living under the same sun and moon...

As for me learning is always my way of living. I learn about science as I learn about human. I learn to tone my muscle at gym as I learn to stretch my flesh and blood in yoga class. I simply love to learn, as I know my curiosity has always been the best way to energize the life in me.

But I guess, learning about many different matters in life never bring me closer to the truest truth about my life. Not until I learn about the life inside me, I found the true knowledge to live this life the way my own true nature should be...

Thanks for all challenge many of you have thrown at me, that always bring me closer to the core of my being, so I can find my way to flow my own stream.

Happily, Gracefully, Beautifully...
With the LOVE that always lighten up my way...

Bunch of Love,

ArifaH

What Moment of Silence Could Bring...

Everything is going back to normal in the tiny little world where I'm living. Although the climatologists still forecast the extreme weather alert is on until the end of February. I start to restore things into the girls and boys rooms, and start to put the furniture back in to mine. As my children start to restore the electronic stuff back to their place, their computer and television are on, so I can have my laptop back all alone after sharing it with them for weeks.

I'm relieved now, 'coz not being able to write when I have the strong need to do so has corrupt the inner me somehow, I kind of loosing a bit of my balance. Somehow, make me have the need to sit and talk all night long with those who can read what I didn't write, as they hear what I didn't say.

Now I understand, I have been using my time online mostly to find some moment of silence, where I could be alone with myself and gather the vibe I need from the universe. This way, all the positive vibe always surround me in every ups and downs of my days. Although in this kind of world, it is almost impossible to avoid negativity, yet we can always minimize it by changing our perspectives.

I changed my words, so I could change my thoughts. And when I could change my perspectives of life as I paint it with rainbow in the most beautiful way, I could suddenly invite all the beauty to stick around me. Even in the worst of storm, I could finally find some light. The very brightness I need to follow, so I can always fly and soar above the storm.

I finally found that my emotion could be the result of my own logical process, as I set my mindset and perspectives. Yet, my true feeling is more about the ability to sense my own true nature and understand my need, as I activate my conscience to be 100% accessible in my entire operational system. And that's how I decide to choose the actions I need to get things done for me and for the tiny little world where I'm living.

Moment of Silence...

"I understand our destiny is written and rewrite according to the way we live our lives. I believe, if our souls agree to do something for the benefit of the life around us - sincerely from the heart - out of love and kindness, the universe will eventually smile and help us, then return all the love and kindness in the most surprising way..."

I guess, having flood inside the house for fourth times is enough reason to feel blue. Although the house is drying, everything is still in the evacuation mode. The washing machine is on the table, my bookshelf is on the tallest cupboard, most of my things are on the ceiling. Good thing my stove is fixed, after the third strike broke it.

Tonight, allow me to have some moment of silence, so I could be free from yesterday. I really need to be alone with myself, so I could fly and soar above the storm.

My Highest Dream

After Lord of The Ring Trilogy, last night I felt lucky for I can watch a novel adapted movie which is better than the national best selling book itself.  The book title is Edensor by Andrea Hirata, while the movie is produced by Mizan.

This one definitely stabbed my inner being, because those scenes describe eloquently how important to set the highest dream.  The one that can fly so high and allow the universe to embrace the dream for us and accommodate all the possible ways to make it comes true.

The scenes made me feel so melancholy, as it remind me how everyone worth their dream. Although, sometime people must put the dream aside after their own reality at the present moment, yet I feel those scenes clearly tell me :

"Never ever give up on your dream, no matter how absurd it is for most people to come true right now. You're on your way to get there some day, and every day You should step closer to reach this highest dream..."

R E S O L U T I O N S

Last year I wrote... 
I promise myself, 2013 will full of Win-win solutions... Best Agreement... Negotiations... and Achievements... that will make me really happy as a woman, mom and the citizen of universe...

For I finally see that happiness is in Me, all I need is look  in and take it out.. I will start by understanding my need and describing how I want to fulfill them.. Then I will continue by drawing the shapes of my own happiness and color them with rainbow... That's how I plan to paint my life...

And also since life is so full of ups and downs, I urge myself to decide how I want to handle the sadness and sorrow in my life.. As I switch the impact of all pain I feel, from the one that hurts me to the one that change me... Cause the wound that couldn't kill me, will definitely make me grow stronger if I allow it to heal completely...

I will stop playing as an object, who will need other to kiss away my sadness and sorrow... It is time to stop being the passenger of my own life vessel... I will learn to be the subject who has the authority to navigate the  way and decide the direction to go... Although I can't always be the driver...

At this new beginning, I make myself another promise :

I will never again waiting for the storm to pass, because in 2011 and 2012,  the life let me learned an important lesson about dancing in the rain till the sun shine again.. The brand new day will always come with the new rainbow of life and better tomorrow does exist if we try hard enough...


In less than 6 hours 2013 will end in my timezone. I don't really have more resolution to make, maybe sticking on what I had last year by doing an honest evaluation will establish a totally brand new days in my tomorrow. Perhaps, I want to add something that I wrote in one of my latest blog.
“I just wanna stay in love with the woman in me…”

So, I would do anything to make her happy. Especially in keeping the sparkling fireworks in my heartbeats flamed in any ways it takes. Even if sometime I have to go completely nuts and act totally crazy in doing so.

Finally I believe, before I can love others I need to be sure that I have already been planting enough love for the life inside me, unconditionally. So, I can keep my promise to love the life with full intensity, as I dedicate my life to live with full capacity.

Let’s continue to have a regular journey to the inner part of our being and find the true love inside, get it out and be ready to plant the seed of love that will make us blossom eternally, every where we go.

Wishing you all happiness and the best out of the coming year...
With all the love, laugh, light, peace and harmony that we deserve..

Bunch of Love,