Tell Me, Is It Real...??

(A Sweet Gift ;)...)

Why will I become addicted to you? What is it? What makes me weak? What is it make me feel to want you?  Is it your mind?  Is it the way you talk? Is it the kiss on your forehead I give each time? Does it do more to me?  Is it not just a kiss for your soul? Is it more a physical attraction?

Do I have the feeling I need to kiss your nose? Do I feel the need to kiss your ear? Or do I want to kiss your neck? Very soft and gentle… What is this heat in me? Coming up so fast..? I feel  difficulty to breath… Your lips, sweet and red, but I am afraid to touch them with my lips, so I put my finger on your lips and I feel the sensation of love...

Shall I leave?  Shall I stay? What does she want me to do…

Finding, Loving and Passionately Living The Life to Feel Alive...

This is come from My Personal Experience, wrote spontaneously in facebook Comments Box... On the Group She's Always a Woman Post :

"When a woman makes the choice to marry, to have children; in one way her life begins but in another way it stops. You build a life of details.You become a mother, a wife and you stop and stay steady so that your children can move. And when they leave they take your life of details with them. And then you're expected to move again only you don't remember what moves you because no-one has asked in so long. Not even yourself. You never in your life think that love like this can happen to you." - The Bridges of Madison County

I was lost completely in Motherhood that taken all my heart, mind and soul... I love My Children and Husband... And gave... in myself 100%... For Giving birth and nurture my 4 children... 3 of them born only in 2 years 10 months... I breastfeed all of them myself, never less than 2 years each... So can you imagine how drawn I was in Love I provide to all the members I have on board...

Although I don't really care of my personal soul and heart need... Because, having children is fulfill me completely at that time... Just by looking at their smile and laughter I feel complete... And giving My Husband a comfort shelter for him to be 'reborn' everyday. That was enough to take all my time...

It was going on until my 9 years in marriage... Then something happen that slap my face... A sister in law come to my home and said "Don't you want to make money on your own... You're still young and educated...!"

It's really not about money, at all... I look in the mirror and see a woman without future of her own... Her only pride is her children and family... She hasn't done anything to for herself and for this world..  (I always dream, my life must mean something to the world.)

I don't want this kind of life... My children are growing... They no longer need 100% of their mother... So I decided to make The Change...

Physically I was look too old, worn and fat.. I'm only 159 cm with 65 kg.. Then the plan was started simply, by making commitment to back in shape again... In 3 months only, I lost 10 kg while still breastfeed my youngest boy...

I got my shape back... And as bonus... I was reborn... Because, the spirit and flame inside me is back too... I started to look for things I can do passionately... Based at home... I can find a good enough nanny to replace me at home... If there's so we probably cant afford them...

Because nothing can replace a woman to do her professional work as a mother... Nobody is good enough to give only the best for her children... The best care, protection, plan, education and love...

But The Mighty Allah never fall asleep... He show me the way to do something for this world from Home... He make me start to write again, as it was my hobby... I share my experience in facebook... My account start from March 2009, and in April 2009 I created a Smart Parenting with Love community Group  in facebook too...

By writing and gathering with people with same concern... I started to feel alive again... And in March 2010, some of my articles was asked by a publisher to be a book without I even need to print it in hard copy...

After the book publish, I was asked to tell my experience on stage... And now here I am... A new me... with mission in life... taking back my life again after gave them all to my family...

The Points You need to learn from my experience... Even if your life trapped at home because of your mothering duty...

Nothing... I really mean NOTHING... can stop your heart, mind and soul to move... You can always do something with passion from home as long as you care enough for the life inside yourself to realize what you really want... Don't feel trapped at home, achieve more...!! Everything is Possible... As long as you keep on dreaming, think big and take action to make it come true... Go beyond yourself...

Finding, loving and passionately living yourself as a woman... is the very important to be a professional mother.. Who knows exactly what her children and husband need, and give the best for them without loosing herself... I wish more woman can be as happy as I am now... This Earth need Happier Women to do something... Because, She's always a Woman... Rite...???  Woman must keep on moving in order to do something for the world...

Not just a choice, happiness is a challenge too... We must fight for the happiness we need... just in case there isn't one in the options we have...Then We can make more options... It's possible, for we have so much love to share with the world...

Bunch of Love,
Arifah H.

The Journey

I'm true to my heart
for admitting all my feelings,
But I wont betray my soul
by refusing to see the right way to take..

The Journey may take forever,
I'll let The Mighty taking over
how to plan all the path I should go
and the direction I must turn...

Paint Others With Rainbows...

The Wound that can not kill you,
can only make you stronger and wiser,
when it healed completely...

Never let anyone paint You, 

in their miserable way of living...

But live beautifully,
and paint others with rainbows...

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To Be Beautiful...

Thank God, finally I understand..
We don't need Make Up,
Nor Going to a Fancy Beauty Care
to be Beautiful...

It is really about
the way we feel of ourselves,
and the way we make people feel about us...

The more we feel good about ourselves
The more others feel good to be with us
The more beautiful we can be...

I am A Moslem, Because...

Maybe I am a moslem because I was born in a moslem family.. And I am just doing all the moslem stuff because everybody else doing so.. I learn religion at school.. Fasting in holy month.. Pray 5 times a day.. reading Qur'an and etc.. I did that because I was told to do so.. And I was afraid not to do so because The Mighty Allah will get angry and eventually, punish me some how..

That was when I was much younger..

Since I got married  and felt the ups and downs in life.. I found that being moslem giving me a chance to find the answer of all my questions about life.. And doing the pray and fasting brought me even closer to the ways how my problem could be solved..  Because I felt that Mighty Allah really answering my questions.. And showing me the ways.. I need all The Moslem Stuff to solve my problems..

That was when I came closer to Allah only when Life brought me down..

When life passed by and I grew wiser..
<Never said older,  coz only wrinkle on my face can proof it,
I’d like to stay sharp, alert and fully charged the way I always be.. >
I have certain better way to live my life..

Now, I can really feel that. As a human, I am consist of body and soul.. I have heart and feeling.. I have brain and mind <The conscious and the unconscious>..  I have Courage and strength..  I have love and happiness.. I have way of life, mindsets, hopes and dreams... Because The Mighty Allah grant me all of those beauties.. save them inside me so I can recall and use them.. As long as I can access them..

And all the moslem stuff I do all my  life make it possible for me to access all those beauty all the time I need then.. Give strength when I was weak,  give me eyes when I couldn’t see, show me where the happiness when sorrow comes, surround me with light in my heart and mind… Show me exactly how a person should live their life...

All so clear when Iam doing my moslem stuff in the right way… I can now feel  it.. He Come running to me when I am walk down my way to get closer… He is as close as my vein as long as I keep my mind to remember Him, and being grateful.. Doing whatever He told me to.. And
avoiding everything that He Hates…

Now Iam doing my pray, my fasting and everything.. because I need it to find the right way.. to hear the voice of heaven that I should write in my notes.. to make my life worth living.. to keep me from falling when life brings me down.. to rise me up so I can stand a mountain. Just like Josh Groban Song..

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.

There is no life - no life without its hunger
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up: To more than I can be.