How Would I...???

Let's just see how time tends to make me see, 
by then we will see all the complexions 
I ever have in my life were there for a reason

The reason that will broaden my understanding
about the life that I'm living, 
more specific about the single life 
that live inside of me
so I really see where I'm heading

All I can do now is accepting with brand new understanding
that it's better for me to swim and float with the tide 
not against it, nor fighting it
and this time I will do my best 
not to run from it

Just one huge question hanging in my thoughts...

Could I buy my soul back from the devils when I really don't know how..???
Especially when I feel too weak to fight alone and too tired to fly solo above the storm...


But I do believe Heaven is a place on earth, as well as the hell is, 
As I also believe that devils are part of our being, as well as the angels are...

Now I see... 

How being a devilish angel who happen to live on earth
without her wing can be so confusing 
for the woman in me...

Dear God,
Allow me to surrender
my fragile heart...

So I will feel the comfort
in The Wing of Your Love
sheltering my innermost soul...
Hopefully...

Note for A Wounded Soul

(Repost - thank you, for the very soul that has wrote me this..)

hush my heartthrob you stir to much in your sleep

clutching a pillow i have christened me

waking to a dryness in your throat

an emptiness in your heart

in search of a pain you have come to call comfort

hush my sweet heart

let your mind guide your heart

let your soul be your light

let your trust be your friend

a thousand ways i search to find the words

a million years i would sell to be yours

but life does not allow my feelings to touch your needs
and the distance does not allow the warmth of your touch

lighten the clouds around my heart

i tried to free my soul

i tried to seal my heart

i even lied to me

and probably to you as well

you see my mind understands reality
my heart understands dreams 

Bunch of Love,

Arifah H.