I
have been spending some lazy days... I feel like floating around in a
place where space and time don't really matter... It has been a funny
week... Last night was the third night I could not sleep... I have
chatted around but still sleepy did not come…I had to play a TV series
on my laptop to get me drowsy... And after that, again I spent all my
morning sleeping...!!!
That is not really a good way for living... I believe this is an extra energy burst I felt, because I had nothing bothering my head at the moment that could really stop me from sleeping… I should have spent the time in a more productive way… Yet I was just floating around without certain focus on something…
I used to spend that much energy when I was busy finishing something, like writing articles, doing translations or making presentation... I could be up all night and sleep for 3-4 hours a day for a week... Today I just feel that, I need to write something all out from the depth of my being, but I am not sure what to write and where to start it… It feels like having a certain melody in my head to compose, but I do not know which instrument to play it and not sure how to make the right arrangement the way I want to hear…
Everything is still flying in chaos inside of me… Between what I need just in the way that I want, with my reality that I must cope to handle my daily life head up, in clash with my dream the way I feel my future should be... The bunch of energy is there, bursting... Keep me awake and alert but I spent it only to float around...
Are you familiar with this song..??
Queen - 'Don't Stop Me Now'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgzGwKwLmgM
There was a time in my life when I could relate to this song… Lived with full capacity and intensity, speeding up to chase something in non distracted focus… I feel today, I want to have my speed and focus back ...
I should not waste any more time… I have to start the process of activating the long gone features inside of me, turn them all back on, combine it with my newest features and perspectives in life… Then focus on making the best out of them… I just can not figure it out how I am going to do all those things... Not just yet… So, I keep on floating… Eventually I know, I should allow myself to enjoy this as an ongoing process…
Because all these days, I have allowed myself to feel trapped in my own reality… Like I have a cool full loaded and well equipped 4 wheel drive vehicle, enhanced with great suspension and speed.. Too bad, I could only drive it from mall to mall in the save suburban area…
So I am floating, following myself to the stream I should be flowing… Trying to stop going with other people flows… Finding my true being, the way I feel it right to be… I little bit too late starting at 37 years old… But late has always been better than never…
Mean while, as I am floating, my heart dance slowly discovering the music of my soul, letting my mind rest… Suddenly, I am absorbed to this music…
Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Piano/Cello Cover) - ThePianoGuys
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgaTQ5-XfMM
I always love the song, but this one touches me deeper than the original... I really love the composition… The music gave me an urge to feel the strikes of sparkling fireworks in my heartbeats and the butterflies’ effect in my tummy... Please, do not awake me… Let me just float and dream some more…
Yes… I want to be in love… Head to heel deeply fallen… But this time I do not need to be bothered with whom… It is more about me and me alone… I just want to focus on how I really feel… I believe floating and falling in love with the one I start to become is the right idea… The next would be setting a new set of actions and goals for the small world where the life inside of me lives…
I feel like spending the days like these talking and chatting with those who has ever experienced my situation and successfully walked out of this kind of days… And it is also great to share this kind of experience with those who is floating like I am now…
Bless the internet… It is a very good thing that with these feelings floating in me I can travel around the world in the speed of light… All I need to do is blending my heart and mind, then channeling them passionately with my soul an spirit…
After that, I would like to dare myself to move around the universe… It feels really great to meet, gather and dance with other souls in the Quantum Leap... The souls that stand only one click away around me…
The SOUL like YOURS,
thank you for reading and being with me...
Bunch of Love,
ArifaH
That is not really a good way for living... I believe this is an extra energy burst I felt, because I had nothing bothering my head at the moment that could really stop me from sleeping… I should have spent the time in a more productive way… Yet I was just floating around without certain focus on something…
I used to spend that much energy when I was busy finishing something, like writing articles, doing translations or making presentation... I could be up all night and sleep for 3-4 hours a day for a week... Today I just feel that, I need to write something all out from the depth of my being, but I am not sure what to write and where to start it… It feels like having a certain melody in my head to compose, but I do not know which instrument to play it and not sure how to make the right arrangement the way I want to hear…
Everything is still flying in chaos inside of me… Between what I need just in the way that I want, with my reality that I must cope to handle my daily life head up, in clash with my dream the way I feel my future should be... The bunch of energy is there, bursting... Keep me awake and alert but I spent it only to float around...
Are you familiar with this song..??
Queen - 'Don't Stop Me Now'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgzGwKwLmgM
There was a time in my life when I could relate to this song… Lived with full capacity and intensity, speeding up to chase something in non distracted focus… I feel today, I want to have my speed and focus back ...
I should not waste any more time… I have to start the process of activating the long gone features inside of me, turn them all back on, combine it with my newest features and perspectives in life… Then focus on making the best out of them… I just can not figure it out how I am going to do all those things... Not just yet… So, I keep on floating… Eventually I know, I should allow myself to enjoy this as an ongoing process…
Because all these days, I have allowed myself to feel trapped in my own reality… Like I have a cool full loaded and well equipped 4 wheel drive vehicle, enhanced with great suspension and speed.. Too bad, I could only drive it from mall to mall in the save suburban area…
So I am floating, following myself to the stream I should be flowing… Trying to stop going with other people flows… Finding my true being, the way I feel it right to be… I little bit too late starting at 37 years old… But late has always been better than never…
Mean while, as I am floating, my heart dance slowly discovering the music of my soul, letting my mind rest… Suddenly, I am absorbed to this music…
Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Piano/Cello Cover) - ThePianoGuys
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgaTQ5-XfMM
I always love the song, but this one touches me deeper than the original... I really love the composition… The music gave me an urge to feel the strikes of sparkling fireworks in my heartbeats and the butterflies’ effect in my tummy... Please, do not awake me… Let me just float and dream some more…
Yes… I want to be in love… Head to heel deeply fallen… But this time I do not need to be bothered with whom… It is more about me and me alone… I just want to focus on how I really feel… I believe floating and falling in love with the one I start to become is the right idea… The next would be setting a new set of actions and goals for the small world where the life inside of me lives…
I feel like spending the days like these talking and chatting with those who has ever experienced my situation and successfully walked out of this kind of days… And it is also great to share this kind of experience with those who is floating like I am now…
Bless the internet… It is a very good thing that with these feelings floating in me I can travel around the world in the speed of light… All I need to do is blending my heart and mind, then channeling them passionately with my soul an spirit…
After that, I would like to dare myself to move around the universe… It feels really great to meet, gather and dance with other souls in the Quantum Leap... The souls that stand only one click away around me…
The SOUL like YOURS,
thank you for reading and being with me...
Bunch of Love,
ArifaH
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