I Wanna Feel Alive..

When life felt so cold and dry like a desert wind, I do need a blanket of a warm heart to give me comfort...

When the same old loneliness is killing me again, I do need a shower of tender touch to keep me alive...

I do hope tomorrow will bring the sunshine back to my heart, so the light will allow my soul to dive in brightness once again...

 #deepsigh

When The Wings are Broken...

Ketika kita meyakini bahwa hidup adalah perjalanan, maka pikiran (mind), perasaan(heart) dan kesadaran(soul) adalah peta dan kompas (inner strength) yang bisa digunakan untuk menemukan arah..

Sang Maha Pencipta telah merancang perangkat GPS itu dengan kesempurnaan, untuk dapat menemukan arah yang benar dan melengkapi kita dengan default factory setting yang sesuai untuk battlefield yang dipilihkanNya untuk kita. Tinggal keyakinan kita pada equipment yang kita miliki menentukan kecanggihan kita menggunakannya..

Salah atau benar, kesasar atau bertemu jalan buntu, bukankah itu sudah lumrah dalam sebuah perjalanan. Maka keyakinan untuk terus bergerak adalah jawaban.. Ketika jatuh, maka segeralah bangkit berdiri..

Ketika hilang arah naik ke tempat tertinggi. Ketika bertemu kebuntuan maka carilah jalan kembali. Ketika lelah maka istirahatlah secukupnya. Ketika kehabisan tenaga maka recharged energi dengan perbekalan yang diperlukan. Semua sah, boleh dan mungkin..

Yang mematikan adalah berhenti bergerak, tenggelam dalam bimbang dan mati rasa karena ketakutan akan tersesat dan berbuat salah…

Padahal salah dan sesat telah diakui sebagai bagian dari kemanusiaan, sejak kanjeng nabi adam as terusir dari surga..

Solusinya ya berhenti terbang saat sayap patah, waktunya menggunakan dua kaki untuk menapaki bumi sambil menemukan ramuan obat untuk membungkus yang patah. Kelak waktunya kan tiba untuk tinggal landas dan terbang lagi.

Semakin tinggi dan jauh..
Demi mengukir makna hidup kita..

Semoga..

One Drop of Feelings...

Hanya secuil rasa yang mampu menciptakan samudera, menggemakan keindahan dalam nafas keheningan, mencurahkan keriuhan pada rona ketiadaan..

Manakala hati yang menyimpan rasa hanya mampu menatap wajah rembulan seraya membisikkan lantunan doa hingga tersenyumlah jiwa yang berenang dalam kedamaian telaga kesejukan..

Semoga..

The Eagle Wish..

Saat geletar kesunyian melemaskan persendian,
membekukan nadi dan melemahkan denyut jantung...

Apa yang akan elang lakukan ketika kepenatan meraja
karena ia bosan terbang sendiri...?

Semoga peraduan malam ini mengisi setiap sel dalam diri dengan energi cinta, hingga jiwa terbangun dengan hati yang hangat, siap menyongsong kembalinya fajar dalam kejernihan yang membeningkan setiap tetes rasa dalam diri...

Selamat jelang dini hari...

Jika tidak terlalu merepotkan,
maukah mengamini pintaku malam ini...

...

When the silence is weakening my strength,

freezing my blood flow and slowing my heartbeat...

What would an eagle wish when a fatigue struck,

because he got tired of flying alone...

I wish my dreamland would fill every cells in me with the energy of love, so my soul would awaken with the warm heart, ready to face the new dawn in the crystal clarity that would cleanse every drops of the feeling in all my journey towards the highest awareness...

Have a great weekend...

If it wouldn't be so much trouble,
Would you pass on my wish today,

to the entire universe...

From the depth of the earth 

up to width of the sky and heaven

so every single one of us 

will live with love, peace and harmony...

 

 

For God Sake,This Baby is Innocent..!!!

No baby ever ask to be born.. There's always a reason why a baby comes to this life.. 
Wanted or unwanted by the woman who carries the baby for 9 months..

 

Whatever it is.. 
No baby DESERVES to be treated like this..

SHAME.. For the hypocrisy in any society who can't accept a child without father 
while they can't stop single men and women having free sex before marriage..

We are all guilty for the pain this pure baby has been through.. 
Thrown to a dirty river bank..

Many religion can't accept adultery..
But I believe any religions must accept the unwanted child..

For GOD sake.. This Baby is INNOCENT..

I Believe, I am in Love...

It feels like having the sparkling fireworks
giving a brand new rhythm to my heartbeats..

It also feels like  having the butterflies effects
giving an electric tingle  in my tummy..

Yes, I believe I am in love..

Yesterday and today,
perhaps also tomorrow
and all the days after..

My atmosphere is full of rainbow
the magical colors paint my days with love..

I know I always love the life
as I always love to love..

But now I am certain
the life is loving me too
in so many surprising way..

The Story of Me, My History and The Pain..

Re-post from last month article written on Facebook...

It's been a rough start for the year, makes my life a real roller coaster ride..

First I have to deal with my health issue... Pain in my tummy and fatigue has been bugging me for a while... Second I have to deal with my own history, not only the history that was written as I remember it, but also those that I managed to forget... Especially the history which bring pain in my life since I was a little creature in mom's womb, until I grow up, be a mom and a wife, moreover become the person I am right now...

This month I met a hypnotherapist and moderating a community sharing with her... Earlier, in the brainstorming session, she tried to dive in my history and told me that the bug in my tummy has something to do with the pain I feel in my life... She said that even if I do the blood test or medical check up, she predicted... The Doctor won't find anything...

And the hypnotherapist was right...

Last week I saw an internist to solve the problem in my tummy, some dear friends and my brother urged me to do so... The doctor who examined me only smiled and asked me, "what kind of check up do you want to run..???".. She supposed to be my doctor, why would she ask me this question... As if she didn't believe I do feel the pain...

Yet.. I told her I just want to check if all the organs in my tummy are working properly... So, i pick to check my liver, kidney, cholesterol, glucose and blood quality counting... I assumed the result of those blood works will be enough to answer what is wrong or tell me that I am fine.. And as predicted.. Everything is normal... Nothing is wrong with me...

The next question is... Why I feel the pain...???

The Internist also told me if the result come out good, then I will need to see a psychiatrist... Not because I am insane... (I believe insanity is a gift, not illness...) More because I have to deal with the pain my history gave me in my feeling.. It was in my heart and mind, it tore my soul apart, it haunted my present now it gave real pain in my body.. So I need someone with credibility to follow me having the journey to the past.. And allow me to set a truce between my memories, my mind and my heart .. So I will find the real peace in the life in me, inside my body and soul...

I want to set myself free from the pain in my past... I want to stop worrying of my future... I want to live at my present with happiness and comfort... I want to start believing in the real me... And love myself for who I am, unconditionally...

Life is too short to live with sorrow and pain.. Time to start believing in dream.. Smile with gratitude.. Walk with dignity and integrity.. Work with respect and confidence.. And be happy to love with full intensity and live with full capacity.. So help me, God..

 

Bunch of Love,

Arifah H.