One Drop of Feelings...

Hanya secuil rasa yang mampu menciptakan samudera, menggemakan keindahan dalam nafas keheningan, mencurahkan keriuhan pada rona ketiadaan..

Manakala hati yang menyimpan rasa hanya mampu menatap wajah rembulan seraya membisikkan lantunan doa hingga tersenyumlah jiwa yang berenang dalam kedamaian telaga kesejukan..

Semoga..

The Eagle Wish..

Saat geletar kesunyian melemaskan persendian,
membekukan nadi dan melemahkan denyut jantung...

Apa yang akan elang lakukan ketika kepenatan meraja
karena ia bosan terbang sendiri...?

Semoga peraduan malam ini mengisi setiap sel dalam diri dengan energi cinta, hingga jiwa terbangun dengan hati yang hangat, siap menyongsong kembalinya fajar dalam kejernihan yang membeningkan setiap tetes rasa dalam diri...

Selamat jelang dini hari...

Jika tidak terlalu merepotkan,
maukah mengamini pintaku malam ini...

...

When the silence is weakening my strength,

freezing my blood flow and slowing my heartbeat...

What would an eagle wish when a fatigue struck,

because he got tired of flying alone...

I wish my dreamland would fill every cells in me with the energy of love, so my soul would awaken with the warm heart, ready to face the new dawn in the crystal clarity that would cleanse every drops of the feeling in all my journey towards the highest awareness...

Have a great weekend...

If it wouldn't be so much trouble,
Would you pass on my wish today,

to the entire universe...

From the depth of the earth 

up to width of the sky and heaven

so every single one of us 

will live with love, peace and harmony...

 

 

For God Sake,This Baby is Innocent..!!!

No baby ever ask to be born.. There's always a reason why a baby comes to this life.. 
Wanted or unwanted by the woman who carries the baby for 9 months..

 

Whatever it is.. 
No baby DESERVES to be treated like this..

SHAME.. For the hypocrisy in any society who can't accept a child without father 
while they can't stop single men and women having free sex before marriage..

We are all guilty for the pain this pure baby has been through.. 
Thrown to a dirty river bank..

Many religion can't accept adultery..
But I believe any religions must accept the unwanted child..

For GOD sake.. This Baby is INNOCENT..

I Believe, I am in Love...

It feels like having the sparkling fireworks
giving a brand new rhythm to my heartbeats..

It also feels like  having the butterflies effects
giving an electric tingle  in my tummy..

Yes, I believe I am in love..

Yesterday and today,
perhaps also tomorrow
and all the days after..

My atmosphere is full of rainbow
the magical colors paint my days with love..

I know I always love the life
as I always love to love..

But now I am certain
the life is loving me too
in so many surprising way..

The Story of Me, My History and The Pain..

Re-post from last month article written on Facebook...

It's been a rough start for the year, makes my life a real roller coaster ride..

First I have to deal with my health issue... Pain in my tummy and fatigue has been bugging me for a while... Second I have to deal with my own history, not only the history that was written as I remember it, but also those that I managed to forget... Especially the history which bring pain in my life since I was a little creature in mom's womb, until I grow up, be a mom and a wife, moreover become the person I am right now...

This month I met a hypnotherapist and moderating a community sharing with her... Earlier, in the brainstorming session, she tried to dive in my history and told me that the bug in my tummy has something to do with the pain I feel in my life... She said that even if I do the blood test or medical check up, she predicted... The Doctor won't find anything...

And the hypnotherapist was right...

Last week I saw an internist to solve the problem in my tummy, some dear friends and my brother urged me to do so... The doctor who examined me only smiled and asked me, "what kind of check up do you want to run..???".. She supposed to be my doctor, why would she ask me this question... As if she didn't believe I do feel the pain...

Yet.. I told her I just want to check if all the organs in my tummy are working properly... So, i pick to check my liver, kidney, cholesterol, glucose and blood quality counting... I assumed the result of those blood works will be enough to answer what is wrong or tell me that I am fine.. And as predicted.. Everything is normal... Nothing is wrong with me...

The next question is... Why I feel the pain...???

The Internist also told me if the result come out good, then I will need to see a psychiatrist... Not because I am insane... (I believe insanity is a gift, not illness...) More because I have to deal with the pain my history gave me in my feeling.. It was in my heart and mind, it tore my soul apart, it haunted my present now it gave real pain in my body.. So I need someone with credibility to follow me having the journey to the past.. And allow me to set a truce between my memories, my mind and my heart .. So I will find the real peace in the life in me, inside my body and soul...

I want to set myself free from the pain in my past... I want to stop worrying of my future... I want to live at my present with happiness and comfort... I want to start believing in the real me... And love myself for who I am, unconditionally...

Life is too short to live with sorrow and pain.. Time to start believing in dream.. Smile with gratitude.. Walk with dignity and integrity.. Work with respect and confidence.. And be happy to love with full intensity and live with full capacity.. So help me, God..

 

Bunch of Love,

Arifah H.

I am Floating, I Just Want to be in Love...

I have been spending some lazy days... I feel like floating around in a place where space and time don't really matter... It has been a funny week... Last night was the third night I could not sleep... I have chatted around but still sleepy did not come…I had to play a TV series on my laptop to get me drowsy... And after that, again I spent all my morning sleeping...!!!

That is not really a good way for living... I believe this is an extra energy burst I felt, because I had nothing bothering my head at the moment that could really stop me from sleeping…  I should have spent the time in a more productive way… Yet I was just floating around without certain focus on something…

I used to spend that much energy when I was busy finishing something, like writing articles, doing translations or making presentation... I could be up all night and sleep for 3-4 hours a day for a week... Today I just feel that, I need to write something all out from the depth of my being, but I am not sure what to write and where to start it… It feels like having a certain melody in my head to compose, but I do not know which instrument to play it and not sure how to make the right arrangement the way I want to hear…

Everything is still flying in chaos inside of me… Between what I need just in the way that I want, with my reality that I must cope to handle my daily life head up, in clash with my dream the way I feel my future should be... The bunch of energy is there, bursting... Keep me awake and alert but I spent it only to float around...

Are you familiar with this song..??

Queen - 'Don't Stop Me Now'
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HgzGwKwLmgM

There was a time in my life when I could relate to this song… Lived with full capacity and intensity, speeding up to chase something in non distracted focus… I feel today, I want to have my speed and focus back ...

I should not waste any more time… I have to start the process of activating the long gone features inside of me, turn them all back on, combine it with my newest features and perspectives in life… Then focus on making the best out of them… I just can not figure it out how I am going to do all those things... Not just yet… So, I keep on floating… Eventually I know, I should allow myself to enjoy this as an ongoing process…

Because all these days, I have allowed myself to feel trapped in my own reality… Like I have a cool full loaded and well equipped 4 wheel drive vehicle, enhanced with great suspension and speed.. Too bad, I could only drive it from mall to mall in the save suburban area…



So I am floating, following myself to the stream I should be flowing… Trying to stop going with other people flows… Finding my true being, the way I feel it right to be… I little bit too late starting at 37 years old… But late has always been better than never…

Mean while, as I am floating, my heart dance slowly discovering the music of my soul, letting my mind rest… Suddenly, I am absorbed to this music…

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years (Piano/Cello Cover) - ThePianoGuys
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QgaTQ5-XfMM

I always love the song, but this one touches me deeper than the original... I really love the composition… The music gave me an urge to feel the strikes of sparkling fireworks in my heartbeats and the butterflies’ effect in my tummy...  Please, do not awake me… Let me just float and dream some more…

Yes… I want to be in love… Head to heel deeply fallen… But this time I do not need to be bothered with whom… It is more about me and me alone… I just want to focus on how I really feel…  I believe floating and falling in love with the one I start to become is the right idea… The next would be setting a new set of actions and goals for the small world where the life inside of me lives…

I feel like spending the days like these talking and chatting with those who has ever experienced my situation and successfully walked out of this kind of days… And it is also great to share this kind of experience with those who is floating like I am now…

Bless the internet… It is a very good thing that with these feelings  floating in me I can travel around the world in the speed  of light… All I need to do is blending my heart and mind, then channeling them passionately with my soul an spirit…

After that, I would like to dare myself to move around the universe… It feels really great to meet, gather and dance with other souls in the Quantum Leap... The souls that stand only one click away around me…





The SOUL like YOURS,
thank you for reading and being with me...

Bunch of Love,
ArifaH

Note for My B-Day Girl...

 270113 - For the most wonderful teenage in the world...

 

One year is added to your age,
may God always add His Perfection
into your beautiful life..

Another year is reduced from your timeline,
may God always give Brightness
for you to see all His Perfect Plan..

So, there will never be a day wasted.. Every single second that flies will give you meaning.. As a lesson for the next journey which will open all the secrets of your true role before God in this life.. The very reason you are created..

In every pray I whisper your name..

May God always be there in every breath You take.. Giving a color to your blood flow.. Sounding a melody in your heart beat.. Echoing a trace in every step You made.. Whatever you will become, wherever you go in the universe..

May I can always be one of your best company.. In a lifetime adventure to find your destiny the way it is written on your own unique life scenario.. So you can embrace the journey, as beautiful as you could ever dance through every minutes of it..

My dear, just note this...

Your destiny is written and re-write according to the way You live Your Life... So, live this life and love it gracefully.. Be ready for all the best plan the universe could ever provide You.. Wish You always have the greatest episodes of life..

I never know the time can travel so fast... All of sudden, You are simply 'Slipping Through My Fingers' .. Growing so proud.. Standing so tall.. So full of surprises..

Yet.. I hope we will always work all things together, through every differences we have in harmony.. So we can make the best out of all the time we share..

Slipping Through My Fingers - Meryl Streep - Lyrics

Always Yours Unconditionally..
Bunch of Love,

Mom